here's a stupid mental conversation with myself.

me: do you have the very christmas-sy feeling these days?
me2: yeah. i know exactly what you mean. i feel it too.
me: i just love this feeling. it's so much bigger than oneself.
me2: it's like the emotion you experience before big events like your birthday?
me: hell no. it's special, it's different, it's almost magical. when the atmosphere becomes all peaceful and shit, when the world just seems alright no matter what happens. i never get this feeling during crappy holidays like CNY, hari raya... hell, not even during deepavali.
me2: bitch.
me: shut up dude. i'm talking here. this is a serious conversation.
me2: sorry sorry. you just crack me up you damn r@#i$t.
me: anyway, it's like you feel like humming christmas songs and carols.
me2: even when taking a dump or a piss?
me: hell yeah. when in the shower, your favourite carol just pops into your head.
me2: the girl carol? you think of carol in the shower? WTF?
me: FU biatch. you know what i mean.
me2: ah. you mean like when you sing 'the first noel'... you fantasize about noel?
me: you are one sick puppy man.
me2: c'mon... where's your christmas spirit? we should be having tons of fun. everyone's all relaxed and ready to let their hair down.
me: yeah.
me2: yeah.
me: okay.. i got to go now. see ya later.
me2: right. later. bitch.

i swear. it's like having an argument with myself... i love every minute of it.
Christmas in freaking 26 days!