Liquid Explosion

2008-12-25T22:14:00.000-08:00

yet another christmas has come and gone...
but the celebration never really dies (at least for me).
it keeps me going throughout the year
until such time when that magical mystical burst of energy
gets revived and renewed.

i've always wondered why i never really lose that
warm fuzzy feeling of christmas.

until i heard this song on christmas day in church.

"christmas isn't christmas
till it happens in your heart.
somewhere deep inside you
is where christmas really starts.
so give your heart to jesus,
you'll discover when you do...
that it's christmas,
REALLY christmas for you."

:)

2008-11-15T23:01:00.000-08:00

:) haha. my high for a day (in more ways than one).

2008-10-04T04:12:00.000-07:00

my friend called me one day and told me he needed help.
he said he needed to attend to the 'calls of the nation' and so he needed someone to stand in for him at his job.
he told me the pay wasn't too bad and that the job was pretty easy.
he told me he was the...
SECURITY GUARD(yeah... start rolling your eyes)

so here's my story of being a stand-in security personnel for some flea market-ish event thingy.
i got really bo liao during my time there so i decided to be professional and create a log of events that happened so i can report them if needed. here goes -

0730H Arrived at Clarke Quay Centre Area (i.e Base Camp) to take over my friend who ended the night shift. Can see/sense that he is visibly relieved. Start listening to Weekend Buzz on 98.7FM to pass the time.

took some shots when i was bored.

i was really bored.

i was really really really bored.

0945H My first toilet break of the day. Had to tahan for nearly 2 freaking hours.
0950H Spotted a photographer with some China girl snapping happily at the place in front of me. She appeared to look pretty old and rather chubby. Thought to myself: "Hope he didnt pay much for her".

i snapped him snapping her.

1000H Tourist start to enter the surrounding area. Most of them are caucasian with some asians. Most of the asians dont look local. They are ALL camera crazy! They just seem so fascinated with everything. One even took a photo of me while i was writing this.
1005H I'm getting pretty hungry and wondering what's for lunch.
1015H My ears hurt from listening to the radio for so long. Decided to start reading my book.
1155H Some random indian worker approached me and asked if he could put some chlorine into the drain (which is located in the centre of the square i'm guarding). The task was completed without complications.
1315H Went for second toilet break.

The log ended here. i got way too bored and frustrated from sitting there in the sun doing nothing and not being able to leave. Not to mention that i was beginning to become delirious from hunger.

all that kept me going was dreaming of this...

drooooolsss.....

i was packing my room and found this baby. uber retro gamer am i.

my final update: my new wallpaper. haha. nice.

nihongo no shiken ukarimashita!!! yoshi!!!

2008-08-10T01:10:00.000-07:00

haa. what a sunday. i was invovled in a car accident. i was sitting in the backseat. i'm still kind of reeling from the shock and all so i'll just put up the pictures and some captions.

my car. doesn't look so bad? wait until you see the full picture.

the paramedics who were very prompt indeed.

see the grey car with the boot up and bumper smashed in?
that's my car. haa. t'was a 5 car pileup.

well, i guess i had it good compared to this guy.
he was the 2nd car.

and this guy? he's the goondu who crashed into me lah.

That's all for the accident pictures. here's some from a very run-down location.
since we're in the spirit of things getting destroyed.

see how bad the floor is? better watch your step.

the super cute snail.

remember kids, always wear your seatbelts. haa.

2008-08-09T00:08:00.000-07:00

haa.
finally the chance to blog.
my lousy 256 MB RAM desktop has officially been canned!
after years of slaving away using such a retro computer, i have finally received my salvation.
as you might now guess, i AM typing this entry on my 1-day old 4 GB RAM laptop!
haa.
anyways, i'm starting to think that these couple of days are 'days of delivery'. just a couple of minutes ago, my second (and VASTLY MORE important) package just arrived via courier.
so HELL YEAH! UOL has finally given me my 4.20kg worth of Study Guides and other documents. time to hit the books.
haa.
lastly, i wanna talk about fireworks. i was up last night gaming on my sweet new lappy (yes, i am rather shameless when it comes to this) and watching the opening of the 29th olympiad of the modern era (the Beijing Olympics 2008 for short) when i realised that China had probably gone for an overkill effect when it came to the fireworks department! they had some short of pyrotechnic going off every few minutes. as they say, great for the eyes but bad for everything else. plus, today is singapore's turn to create more pollution during the annual national day parade. is there anyone out there that wishes to partake of this local spectacle?
haa.
world peace people, world peace.

2008-06-07T20:28:00.000-07:00

what is your lot in life?

to be constantly wooed for your beauty? surrounded by hordes of adoring fans?

(picture is that of a toilet sign. taken at the Army Museum of Singapore)

to be a successful hunter? a slayer of demons & wild beasts?

(behold the rat killer 2000, super robot)

whatever it may be..

always remember...

a lot is never more than the sum of her parts.

cheers^^so blur. stupid camera.

2008-05-18T07:30:00.000-07:00

it's been a terribly interesting week.
too much for me to regurgitate in one sitting.
so, highlighting it shall be.
captions below the pictures.

you think dancing singa-bots are cool? this shit costs $499.90!

old school hamburgers at KAP. :)

tea leaf eggs? nope! it's some glutinous rice balls in ginger soup. yummy.

saw this ad in the papers. well, i guess it ain't gonna happen. :(

an enviromentalist's worst nightmare. LoL.

a caterer's worst nightmare - kiasu singaporeans. hah.

remember, MOH recommends eating 2-3 servings of fruit a day. :)

in other updates, a certain someone has found me stuff that i have been looking for for very long. thanks!!!

good week people. damn good week. ^^

2008-05-06T06:49:00.000-07:00

konbanwa mina-san!
it's another one of those days. the kind when you start off feeling all down (well, not really down but not really up either) and end it off feeling GREAT! why? haha. allow me to reveal the way the universe unfurvelled itself to moi.

it started with work. well, alot of folding and printing. haha. too much printing. i have managed to cause a pretty bad paper jam in one of the office printers. luckily it still prints even though there is one piece of paper stucking in one of the rollers. haha. i felt pretty bad. tis not the 1st time... nor the 2nd... neither is it the 3rd... well, you get the idea.

but when i got home. checked my mail...
i saw...

THIS!!

whahahaha. for those who can't really remember, i went to watch Superhero movie at GV after which i emailed them because it skipped one of the scenes. well, they finally replied. i must admit that i am pretty satisfied with the reply. *wink wink*

Besides all that free ticket stuff, here some snapshots of my days at work. captions are at the bottom of the pictures.

the crazy coupon count-down. plus stamping.

this is what happens when you leave me with too much of one thing.

we finally finished it down to the last 500..

the following pictures were taken today when we ventured into the rarely exhibited part of the centre. here are some the highlights of the never filmed-before creatures that we discovered in our journey.

there were, of course, native inhabitants of these dark lands.

i have named them Dalmapornations (scientific name: softic toyrus puppricatus)

here we present them (even before National Geographic does)...

here we see two of the fascinating creatures in their strange mystical poses.

notice how closely these beings mimic human behaviour despite minimal homosapien interaction.

you gotta lurve nature. ^^

2008-05-03T22:55:00.000-07:00

i'm sick.

apparently i have been struck by some mysterious flu bug. long story.. here goes.

MY WEEKEND By Samuel

T'was a bright and sunny saturday morning as the boy awoke from his slumber. feelings of hunger and thrist overwhelmed him. pillows fell from the bed as he stomped to the kitchen in his sleep-induced state. grabbing a quick bite and a swig of milo, he dashed out the door, realising that he would be horribly late if he didn't. mananging to catch the 174 just in the nick of time, he proceeded to carry out his typical 'bus-ride-sleep'.

class was horrible. probably the longest 3 hours of my life. why? because today was the day that we are not allowed to use 'romanji' (roman letters). i nearly died while trying to read a passage. it was like being in chinese class in jc. my only consolation? everyone else sucked just as much. whahahaha.

got home. runny nose. finished 3 boxs of tissue. tried to self-medicate.
super inflammed throat. fever in the middle of the night. 2 fever pill later. sleep glorious sleep.

went to see the doctor this morning.
took some cat shots while walking down the stairs.
see what cats do on lazy sunday mornings...

cheers. i need my medicine. ^^

2008-04-30T08:00:00.000-07:00

have you ever gone to airshows like the recent Singapore Airshow 2008 and marvelled at the number of fighter aircraft and other military hardware on show?
have you ever thought to yourself... "hmm... i wonder if i ever will be able to fly something like that"?
here's presenting...

THE EUROFIGHTER TYPHOON

cool huh? i have to say this is one super slick looking jet. i'd rather fly this than the outlandishly ugly looking (but argueably more hi-tech) F-22s or F-35s. this baby is capable of super-cruise and other high-G moves. not to mention the equally hi-tech armaments that complement it. go wikipedia if you need more info.

the reason i'm blogging? because i found this...

whahahaha. it's a PC game. funky yes? i am very surprised.. even my uber retro 256MB RAM PC is capable of loading the game and playing it without any difficulty. amazing.
i took some screens of my flight time before i got G-LOC. haha.

like a real sortie, this game starts with a detailed mission briefing complete with the option of choosing your waypoints and armaments.

shiok. this is me at the helm (the HUD rather) of the jet. i was playing a carrier-based mission. so i'm on standby at the carrier's deck waiting for the scramble order. you can see the GPS terrain maps (bottom left square) and the onboard radar (bottom right square).

this was taken after i took down 2 MiG-29 in a super intense dogfight. the enemy AI is not stupid. they'll do high-G jinxs to rid themselves of the heat-seeking missiles. but they always fall prey to better team tatics. this picture is of me and my wing-man just as we were on final approach to land at one of the friendly airfields.

this was my final HUD snap-shot before landing. you can see the airfield and the landing strip. it was kinda stupid for me because i crash landed while trying to take this snap-shot. as you can see from the picture, i missed the landing area and headed into the center of the strip before my jet blew up. nuts.

all in all. it's pretty entertaining. well, i'm not air-boy for nothing. ^^

2008-04-29T05:20:00.000-07:00

hey everybody! i went to watch a movie after work today. guess what i saw?

yeah. that pretty much sums it up doesnt it? haha. first off, the show is crap dog shit. understand me when i say crap doggy poop i mean it. it is a complete waste of time. how i let myself get talked (conned) into watching this incredible drovel i will never know. maybe its the curious and nice persona within me that wanted to give a poop movie like this a chance...
well, guess it'll never happen again.
SCARY MOVIE & NAKED GUN and even EPIC MOVIE was sooooo much better.

well, unfortunately for me and the friends that went with... that's not the worst part of the story. i am kinda pissed. actually, i am infuriated and incensed. why? the reason is simple. not only was the movie stupid, the people running the show were as well.

allow me to explain myself using some pictures. i will give a brief explaination as we move along.

we went to the GV cinema at JURONG POINT on the 29th of APRIL 2008 and saw the show at 1710H (of which there were almost 20 minutes of commercials) in CINEMA 6. this can be clearly seen in the ticket stub.

ok. this is where we (the audience) last saw BEFORE THE WHOLE FIGGIN' SCENE SKIPPED. i simply cannot believe that a reputable cinema like GV will allow this kind of thing to happen. frankly this is the FIRST TIME i have ever experienced this.. and i certainly hope it will be the last. at least with no-brainer shows like this, the plot never matters. but what would happen if you were watching a real movie like Lord of the Rings or Star Wars or Harry Potter and you realise that they skipped 1 entire scene? as an avid movier-goer i would be enraged.

anyway, for the dear friends and people who (due to this incompetence) missed this hilarious part of the movie, here what you might have left out.

bad guy tells (and points) kid that other person is the real bad guy.

points to the dalai lama.

chairman announces that the dalai lama won something.

curtains rise and dragonfly is beating up the exasperated (and innocent) dalai lama.

members of the audience are shocked.

chairman tries (in vain) to stop the fight from continuing.

dalai lama tries to explain that he is a peaceful man.

dragonfly doesnt believe him and strips him to find the selenium tube.

the pope capturing the moment (and naked dalai lama on his phone).

as you might expect, big fight ensues. and next scene is the one with the dragonfly and the hourglass in the empire con convention.

i still can't believe it. how can they do this? i wouldnt be so pissed if they at least apologised after the show and tried to let us see that part again. even if they didnt, why didnt anyone even try to explain why this sort of thing happened. why didnt whoever was manning the projector realize that something was wrong and try to rectify the problem or at the very least inform the management so that they can explain to the viewers? i know this is very crude of me but i think the staff there has either got to be brainless or blind not to catch that mistake.

entire experienced summed up in two words?

fucked up.

2008-04-27T06:26:00.000-07:00

there goes another week. wow. here's some highlights from this week.

1. i have FINALLY. yes, FINA-F%^&KING-LY tried the McGriddles that have been causing me to involunterily salivate while watching the commercial on the tube.

for the poor people who have no idea what i am referring to it is this.

well, i have to say.. the marketing gimmick worked wonders on me. for i had to get my hands on one. alas, i am sad to report.. that i think it sucks.

well, not totally 'sucky'. but not up to the hype and expectation that i had for it. thinking it would be an incredible flavour burst in my mouth turned out to nothing more that wet mush. i am so disgusted.

2. i went to bedok (en route to an ex-classmate's birthday party) and on the way home, some of the gals introduced us to what i can only think of as really really juicy. haha. from what they told me, it's called peng watermelon.
well, my first thought was they there were gonna grill/bbq the watermelon. i mean that is what peng is right? my train of thought being derived from terms like peng kang.
well, apparently i was wrong.
turns out...
the thing...
looks like...

THIS!!!!

(btw, posing with it is the classmate that introduced us to the cocktail/drink/fruit)

whahaha. i can't imagine a single person being able to finish the whole thing. although that does sound like a challenge. haha. maybe i shall go back and attempt to devour one by myself. just thinking of it makes me hungry. what can i say? i'm a fruit kinda guy.

愛なんて - NewS for some reason.. i can't get this song out of my head. hen ne?

2008-04-21T19:32:00.000-07:00

Ah.. didn't need to go to work yesterday. so i went to do something productive.
i went to collect me PASSPORT! haha. now i am free to travel (thanks to the friendly people at ICA who made me wait for 1 hour before i managed to collect my document). anyways. since i am now armed with a PASSPORT, i've been checking the papers for Free & Easy tours to nice (and cheap) vacation spots for me (us) to chill and have some fun.

it's kinda reasonable i think. some travel agencies are offering 4D/3N @ bangkok (airfare + hotel) for as low as 218!!!

then there's the thing about going for a cruise. papers are full with that sort of thing too. tis such a headache to just look at them.

see? too many. can someone just make it SIMPLE for me. i hate to read advertisements. waste brain space.

erm... to the 'boss' & 'bosses'... let me know if you are interested. i know i sure as hell am. =)

^^tag if you get it.

2008-04-20T02:40:00.000-07:00

i always try my very best to be a good citizen. xiao gong ming during the primary school days... followed by the equally useless civics and moral education in secondary school... sometimes i wonder why the ministry even bothers to add these subjects when they know it has little or no effect on the students. i mean, if the program were so damn effective, explain why we have so many hooligans and other teenage-related problems in society. idiots.>

anyway, back to the story. look at the picture below.

looks like just another HDB block in some nice quiet neighbourhood, yes? well, it is. it's the block opposite mine. i snapped a photo of it from my bedroom window. <no... i am not trying to peep into the sexy girl's room on the same floor^^...perverts.>

just so you know, i did so for good reason.

JUST LOOK CLOSER!

the guy has freaking plants (or other weird grossly overgrown vegetation) spewing forth from his damn windows. the damn things are so freaking BIG i had to snap a shot. to show you the true size of the newly dubbed 'giant plants of my neighbour', compare the air-con fan to the size of the freaking plant.

i can't imagine walking underneath the damn thing. worst still if it rains. what if it just breaks and lands on your head (or any other body part).

so i was just wondering if there's a rule or law or something that HDB can do to ensure the safety of the residents and the community at large.

inconsiderate owners of oversized plants beware. i am watching you.

P.S. i wonder what if it (the plant) was to bear fruit. imagine the shock and/or horror of being hit by a cucumber or tomato when it gets ripe and drops from outside the window. haha. rofl.

2008-04-18T23:49:00.000-07:00

i must be really bored at home. this is the 3rd day in a row that i'm blogging. haha. maybe it's cos i'm using pictures. perhaps that extra participation is the precise amount of pleasure that i am required to fulfill.

anyways. i got back my jap mini - test results.
haha. full marks. yeah. i know it's a super simple quiz but please allow me to bask in the glory of the moment...

waaa... shiok! haha. i'm a glory-hog. turns out i am supposed to write in using portrait format instead of landscape (which explains the arrows and marking by my sensei).

to all the good people of the academic world still struggling with your seemingly endless amount of classes and tutorials and assignments and projects and late-night muggings and flasks upon flasks of milo/tea/coffee/horlicks/milk to keep you awake, we of the working realm salute you.

haha. i wanted to put something really bastard, but thought it would be best to do otherwise.
check out my newbie hirigana skills before you go...

ja ne mi na san~ ^^ tag if you get it.

2008-04-17T04:51:00.000-07:00

i have just proven a fact to myself - i am getting old.

old and forgetful. haiz. the most potent combination of the aged.

so it happened like this.

i went down to the driving centre to take my FINAL THEORY TEST (FTT). happily i waltzed to the 2nd floor of the centre and entered the room for the test-ees. i handed my IC to the examiner and waited as she checked for my name...

i waited...

and waited...

continued waiting...

she turned and asked me (what i thought was) the most ridiculous question (today) "what test are you here for?"

being the nice guy that i am (and not wanting to piss off the examiner) i curtly replied "the final theory test."

to which the reply was most troubling... "i'm sorry. but that's not today. why don't you go downstairs and check."

my 1st thought - F^&*K. what the hell is wrong with the damn system. so i proceeded to log on to my account and do some checking...

AND THEN I SAW IT! 16th APR 08!

i came on the WRONG DAY! as it turns out... my FTT was YESTERDAY! -.-"'

i think i'm suffering from time-warp syndrome a.k.a short term memory.

in other work related news. i am proud to show of my great motion picture capture skills using my antique nokia phone. it's got like 1.3 mega pixels. who the hell uses such a low resolution these days you ask?

lim peh lo.

this is the story of how empty spaces get filled.

1. get an empty space. in this example we use 'the court'...

2. notice how quickly 'the people' fill up the empty spaces in such areas. kindly observe the weird defensive poses that these creatures take when they feel like we are encroaching near their nesting area.

3. we can see how such land-dwelling critters like to imagine themselves as those of the sky. watch how they seem obsessed with filling their nests with round objects that are commonly found in their habitat.

nature is so interesting. =)

2008-04-16T04:40:00.000-07:00

it's been so long since i last blogged.

haha. feels kinda retarded just typing it out. seems like i say the same thing ALL THE TIME.

oh well. work is soo BORING.

wanna see?

SEE? told you it was what i said it was.

but this was pretty long ago. the 'good old days' as i would prefer to call it.

nowadays we are pretty much stuck doing funky admin stuff like data entry and filing. it gets rather disturbing what happens to people doing too much paperwork. allow me to prove my case.

observe the sample picture as shown above. pretty normal looking isn't it? the papers stacked neatly in their individual piles. the boxes put impeccably in place. the report lovingly left on the chair for the supervisor. just wonderful, wouldn't you agree?

now see the transformation (by deprived office workers)...

need i say more? case in point.

disclaimer: tomb pic not mine. i say again not MINE.

2008-03-30T00:55:00.000-07:00

"Friends are God's apology for relations." - Hugh Kingsmill

i make no apology for the words i say. interesting as things may be at present, i believe they will eventually engulf the future. this can be at best catergorised as a malicious attempt to sever what many have struggled incessantly to maintain. the peace that has been preciously preserved threatens to erupt into carefully coordinated conflict. this is unacceptable. this is intolerable. the nefarious cannot be allowed to prevail. i pray that all of their heinous plans will be thwarted by the indiscriminate hand of justice. such is the situation. the powers beyond mock us.

stop china, free tibet! jail that Geert Wilder! fight for peace!

2008-03-28T20:53:00.000-07:00

the question to all of life's mysteries can possibly be summed up to this unique query.

"doushite koibito ni narenai no?"

woo hoo! jap lessons start this coming sat! =3

2008-03-21T08:39:00.000-07:00

It's good friday!

a just wanna share a really lovely song about God's greatest gift to man.

PLAY IT!

Why? - Nicole Nordeman

We rode into town the other day, just me and my Daddy.
He said I’d finally reached that age, and I could ride next to him on a horse
that of course was not quite as wide
We heard a crowd of people shouting and so we stopped to find out why
There was that man that my dad said he loved,
but today there was fear in his eyes

So I said Daddy why are they screaming?
Why are the faces of some of them beaming?
Why is he dressed in that bright purple robe?
I bet that crown hurts him more than he shows
Daddy please can’t you do something?
He looks as though he’s gonna cry
You said he is stronger than all of those guys
Daddy please tell me why,
why does everyone want him to die?

Later that day the sky grew cloudy
and daddy said I should go inside
Some how he knew things would get stormy,
boy was he right
But I could not keep from wondering
if there was something he had to hide
So after he left I had to find out,
I was not afraid of getting lost
So I followed the crowds to a hill where I knew men had been killed
And I heard a voice come from a cross:
And it said : Father why are they screaming?
Why are the faces of some of them beaming?
Why are they casting their lots for my robes?
This crown of thorns hurts me more than it shows.
Father please can’t you do something?
I know that you must hear my cry.
I thought I could handle a cross of this size,
Father remind me why,
why does everyone want me to die.
When will I understand why?

My precious Son, I hear them screaming.
I’m watching the face of the enemy beaming
but soon I will clothe you in robes of my own.
Jesus this hurts me much more than you know,
but this dark hour I must do nothing.
Though I’ve heard your unbearable cry
the power in your blood destroys all the lies,
soon you’ll see past their unmerciful eyes.
Look there below see the child trembling by her father’s side.
Now I can tell you why,
she is why you must die.

2008-03-08T20:09:00.000-08:00

i love 恋空!

旅立ちの唄 - Mr.Children

Heavenly Days - Yui

so sad. so brilliantly sad.

2008-02-23T04:25:00.000-08:00

help.
otherwise.
people.
evaporate?

hang.
obstinate.
promising.
evermore?

what is hope?
the dictionary defines it as 'the feeling that what is wanted can be had'.

my definition of hope?
Hold
Offer
Protect
Encourage

hope is like life. it is precious. don't waste it. keep hoping.

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Post Note:
i just discovered a pretty interesting thing today.
did you know that it is Irish Folk Tradition that women may make requests (or in the past, proposals) to men on 29th of Feb (the leap day of the leap year) and the men cannot refuse. it is said that if they were to refuse, they would have to pay a fine or penalty.
so to all the ladies out there. you know what to do.
it is also mentioned that men whose names begin with 'S' are spared from this. LoL. peace.

2008-02-13T05:34:00.000-08:00

To a special someone. read this and know that it's me that loves you most.

If Love is like a book.
then relationships are either two things... the beginnings or the endings.
remember that it is how it the story starts... that ultimately determines... how the story ends.
you are the author... write to impress your reader... write to capture... write to captivate. a good story... like a good relationship... holds your attention. it makes you never want the story to end. don't we all experience that sometimes? when you are so immersed in the story... when you are so familiar with the characters... when you don't even mind that the storyline is just mindless drovel... you just want it to go on forever.

keep writing. the ink will never run out. only the will to continue.
the CHASE is never over...

P.S to all the lovers and love-ees out there. go for it. happy V'day.

P.S 2 under my umbrella...ella...ella...a...a..a.. LoL.

2008-02-10T04:40:00.000-08:00

it's the Lunar New Year yet again.
seems so strange to type the same words again every year. well, alas, while things change... so things just never change. going to my grandparents' houses... going to my granduncles' places. memories. really sweet memories.
what i love most about these visitations?
watching all the new additions to the family squirm and giggle as proud parents and eager aunties rush to attend to their every want and need. cute cousins are a blessing. dun grow up too soon christine. smiles =)

2008-02-03T19:09:00.000-08:00

something magical always happens during birthdays.
maybe that's why they call 'em birthdays.

from the very first (and very literal) birthday, the process... the event in itself is always a joy for someone. the 1st would always go to the proud parents who would gaze adoringly as you wail in their embrace.

alas, those were the younger days. doting parents to do everything they can for you for your 'special day'. you as the young impulsive tween (yes, tween. not so much a toddler yet not fully a teen) always demanding weird stuff that will gross you out when you reflect on it.

then you reach puberty. the age of enlightenment. of rebelliousness. you get to drink harder beverages than orange juice and cola. you get to stay out later and party harder. you surround yourself with like-minded friends who would repeat the process for everyone. you find special someones to share that extra special burst of birthday magic.

then you turn 21. you hold big bashes for friends & family. you take center stage and captivate your audience by your grace and beauty (leng lyoi. LoL) you receive truck loads of presents, some expected some not so much so - weird china flower deliveryman. but there are always magical moments... though not always for the lady of the night/day... because birthday magic is never just for some... it's for everyone.

i just love happy endings.
21 - where 2 become 1. smiles

2008-01-18T18:53:00.000-08:00

"you never know what you had until it's gone..."

i ORD-ed yesterday. today being the true official day. tis 2 years ago this day that my parents saw me off to P. Tekong for BMT. looking back on the journey... brings back fond irreplacable memories of each place i've been posted to.

i really miss my workplace. to me, it became a home away from home. it was a place that made me who i am. it forced me to go beyond myself and pushed me to limits i never knew i had. training was a bitch, but the sweet rewards after were more that justified. there exists a culture, a mutual understand, something so symbolic yet unspoken that everyone knows. most of all, working there gave me a sense of purpose... of belonging. leaving now... knowing that things will never be the same again... saddens me greatly. it's like being torn apart from your family. but that's how life is. you live. you learn. you leave.

TAB BOC - you will always be my family. warlords for life.

2008-01-05T22:55:00.000-08:00

i'm in a writing mood. it's times like this when i wish i was doing an essay or something more constructive so that all the creative juices don't go to waste on something as trivial as a blog. anyway, it's been a pretty sunny day... just chilling out... listening to my octopussy shower radio (which incidentally i have never put in the bathroom. it now hangs cutely off one of the knobs of my bedroom cupboards, supplying my room with the sweet sounds of Class 95)... typing out weird-ass emails... watching Yakitate!!Japan... if MC is heaven then ORD must be sheer ecstasy.

anyway, i think i should write about my wisdom teeth removal experience at AssHole. haha. come to think of it. it's pretty funny. ironic even. i was pretty freaked out by the notion of having someone cutting my gums and drilling off bits of bone before slicing the tooth in half and yanking it out. sounds pretty painful huh? that's the exact same ominous feeling i got when i was reading the damned pamphlet. so anyway, with the blessing of the consultation doctor, she recommended that i go remove 1 first, then subsequently the last 2. with no prior dental knowledge, i agreed without protest nor question.

the day of the operation dawned. i waited patiently at the clinic and waited for my turn. the screams from prior patients muffled by the padded walls of the wards, sending a dark chill down my spine. then one of the nurses called out my name. i marched to one of the designated rooms to measure my vitals as part of the pre-surgery preparations. i winched as she strapped me down on a leather chair and bound one of my hands with a vice-like cloth attached to a constantly beeping machine. as if to taunt me, the greater my anxiety, the faster the evil device sounded its shrill alarm. finally after the perilous ordeal, i was lead to the room marked 'dental surgery 1'. inside were already 3 assistants fully suited and ready. "lie down and shut up" i was told as she snatched my glasses from my face. pinned down on the aptly named 'death plank', i was both blinded and terrified. but all that adrenaline could not prepare me for that which was to come..

the dental surgeon waltzed into the room with a 2nd doctor in tow. "hello samuel" his mouth never opened, yet by some force of nature the low growl emerged barely audible. "this is dr irene, she's a doctor, but wishes to specialise" he continued emphasizing that word. "i will be teaching her while we operate on you, so you'll have a running commentary of sorts". he continued by probing my mouth and looking at my x-rays before saying "it looks like the one you are doing is rather deep. how about switching to the other 2 instead?" "sure doc, whatever you say" with those few words, i just doubled my pain. i could've flipped out if the needles he jabbed me with weren't already passing their drugs into my bloodstream. after that initial ordeal, he left me as his assistants took over. placing all the pain-inducing instruments on my chest and covering my face with a thick cloth with all but a hole for my mouth and nostrils.

he returned as soon as the assistants finished their placement work. probing and talking to the lady doctor. they seemed to have lots of Q & A while drilling and pulling at my teeth. soon, the high-pitched drone of the drilling jolted me from my sweet daydreams. i could have screamed, but 2 pairs of hands were in my mouth along with a number of pretty hazardous-looking apparatus. muted by fear, i let them continue. in a few more moments, i heard the sweetest words ever, "the tooth is out". i heaved a sigh of relief. a wave of relaxation coursing through my body as i slumped onto the plank...

and the rest? it's history.

P.S. all of it is writtened incredibly excessively.
the operation was really wacky but not as painful as i thought it would be. cool. really funny doctors though. the commentary was a really a weird feeling. haha.

2008-01-02T03:31:00.000-08:00

It's the new year. new beginnings. new everything.

live. life. love.

2007-12-28T06:25:00.000-08:00

being on leave is a very bad thing for lazy people such as myself.
i often find myself devoid of energy and filled with procrastination for tasks that i willed myself to accomplish. alas, this has to be the 'holiday effect', taking place amid the fanfare and pomp of the season. i have but one phrase for such a scenario - oh well.

anyways, here's a short video of my X'mas which takes place roughly between
241207 2200H (1400 UTC) - 251207 0900H (0100 UTC)

enjoy.
re-live. re-member. re-joice.

2007-12-20T20:34:00.000-08:00

i have got a new toy! haha. i love playing with new toys, don't you?

see what it can do...

SOOOO CUTE right? i think it's a tofu. haha. tofu with green tea!

as if that's not enough...

here's a video too..

haha/ peace out people.

2007-12-18T04:21:00.000-08:00

Aiyo.. aiyo.. aiyo

so many movies to watch...
haiz. just that i have no one to watch 'em with.

The Golden Compass (NOW SHOWING)
The Warlords (NOW SHOWING)
30 Days of Night (NOW SHOWING)
I am Legend (25 Dec)
P.S I Love You (27 Dec)
Eastern Promises (03 Jan)
The Mist (24 Jan)
Sweeney Todd: The Demon Barber of Fleet Street (07 Feb) (die die MUST watch)
10,000 B.C. (06 Mar)
The Spiderwick Chronicles (06 Mar)
Iron Man (30 Apr)
The Dark Knight (17 Jul)

Well, that's about it for now. haha. hopefully i will get to watch 'em all. by true means or foul.
It's so boring being on leave and having nothing much to do. It's like you got to slow your pace down and take things easy (the way things should be in the first place). oh well. leave ain't gonna last forever. better make it count.

it's kurosagi time. woo.

2007-12-09T03:45:00.000-08:00

almost...

I finished watching Proposal Daisekusen! yay! the ending was so sweet. he finally managed to say it out (just in time too) and win back the true love of his life. awwww....

watching the show really makes me think about the past. about secondary school... about going to jc... about all the weird and wacky things that we did in the past. the emotions that were left when we graduated. after watching the show... it really made me truly appreciate all the events that happened. it also caused me to wonder... how life could have turned out for me, if i did things a little differently. if God could somehow give me the chance to turn back the clock, if i could return to specific periods of the past, how i could re-do and make good the regrets... the messed up choices... the wrongs.

have you any regrets about the past?
so close...
i was digging through my old handphone, i'm gonna change it soon (i hope), and i found alot of old photos. well, not exactly very old. but old enough. there was one that i remember fondly (only after viewing the picture) and it was one taken during my most favourite time of year - Christmas!

not too long ago i think. tree. presents. a very happy me.
how i wished ALL the presents were mine. hehe.

oh well. at least i can take comfort in the knowledge that it is right around the corner.

but still so far...

2007-12-02T20:09:00.000-08:00

here's the retard me posting his entry.

-start transmission-

eh. me on friday. go to the shopping center at the orchard road there. so many peeple. meet too aunties early. den late some boob come - him is terrance...oops..is tearance...oh, is not...is terence. he late. very slow one. see he face very red. boob buy new pails...sorry is smaller...glasses. insides very red... like raw beef. nice.

-end transmission-

so that's the gist of pre-weekend.
saturday was slightly more happening. it's been such a long time since all of the gang could make it. taking time off from her studies and all... you really got to hand it to hardworking people like LL. it's this kind of dedication and discipline that is lacking in so many of today's youth. hopefully this will serve to inspire and protect the sanity of these fine examples of society. bah. i'm such a liar.
anyway, it's the BIG BOSS's birthday celebration. went to Vivocity. yeah. we went there on a saturday night. we're nuts.
anyway, the plan-less us ate at Hog's Breath Cafe/ did i spell breath correctly?
and the birthday boy cracked a joke - "wonder how the food will smell like at Hog's Breath?"
haha. indeed. how mature. the thoughts of a 20 year old. =) i'm kidding.
too bad we didn't end up on siloso beach. i was kinda hoping we would've. darn. shucks.
well, i guess there's always next time. but we had a blast crashing at your joint. thanks bro.

小白... woo
我好想你 wor...
小白...
你有想我吗?
小白...
不要害怕 wor...
小白...

我来了 .
creepy.

2007-11-30T19:22:00.000-08:00

everyone's posting chinese words these days... pisses me off

so here's mine too!

只要能够远远这样看着你
看着你...　看着你
就算伤心心里还是好想你
好想你...　好想你
只要能够静静这样陪着你
陪着你...　陪着你
就算分手还是选择喜欢你
喜欢你...　喜欢你
我好希望整个地球
只剩下我和你
我就能勇敢的说我还爱你
我好希望我会忘记说
再见的声音
我不再回忆也不再伤心...

nice right? so sweet-y

2007-11-28T21:35:00.000-08:00

here's a stupid mental conversation with myself.

me: do you have the very christmas-sy feeling these days?
me2: yeah. i know exactly what you mean. i feel it too.
me: i just love this feeling. it's so much bigger than oneself.
me2: it's like the emotion you experience before big events like your birthday?
me: hell no. it's special, it's different, it's almost magical. when the atmosphere becomes all peaceful and shit, when the world just seems alright no matter what happens. i never get this feeling during crappy holidays like CNY, hari raya... hell, not even during deepavali.
me2: bitch.
me: shut up dude. i'm talking here. this is a serious conversation.
me2: sorry sorry. you just crack me up you damn r@#i$t.
me: anyway, it's like you feel like humming christmas songs and carols.
me2: even when taking a dump or a piss?
me: hell yeah. when in the shower, your favourite carol just pops into your head.
me2: the girl carol? you think of carol in the shower? WTF?
me: FU biatch. you know what i mean.
me2: ah. you mean like when you sing 'the first noel'... you fantasize about noel?
me: you are one sick puppy man.
me2: c'mon... where's your christmas spirit? we should be having tons of fun. everyone's all relaxed and ready to let their hair down.
me: yeah.
me2: yeah.
me: okay.. i got to go now. see ya later.
me2: right. later. bitch.

i swear. it's like having an argument with myself... i love every minute of it.
Christmas in freaking 26 days!

2007-11-20T23:29:00.000-08:00

I just finished reading the novel, The Last Legion by Dr Valerio Massimo Manfredi. Not until i wiki-ed the guy that i realized i have actually read one of his other books (Tyrant) before. No wonder his name rings such a bell.

Anyway, I've also learned a new phrase and a slightly revised concept of what it truly means to be a civilization. Or rather what it means to differentiate ourselves from what we would otherwise term 'barbarians'. A rather thought-provoking yet thrilling story which not only compels you to understand the essence of the character's behaviour, but the moral that motivates the entire storyline. It's funny how much you can garner from history. Maybe it is this very appeal that has whetted my fascination to read history. But enough about me babbling on concerning the rise and fall of western society to barbaric forces of old, it's time to dwell on the simple things in life - like where's my dinner? Will i be fed fish? Or poultry? Will i be in time to catch The Simpsons on tv?

Alas, the world of infinite wonders. Infinite possibilities.
condemnant quod non-intellegunt - they condemn because they do not understand

2007-11-17T22:47:00.000-08:00

i hate that stuipid blog site ---> blogbeam.com

it's so full of shit.

not ONCE did my blogs there last 6 months...

before they were

DELETED!

wtf.wtf.wtf.wtf.iamsopissed.wtf.wtf.wtf.wtf.
fullofshit.wtf.wtf.wtf.wtf.wtf.wtf.fullofshit.
wannakicksomeass.wannakicksomeass.
wtfamiwriting?iamsuchapeacefulnicechap.
nomorehate.justpeace.justlove.justwii.
oops.meanttosayjustwe.oui?

2007-10-28T01:56:00.000-07:00

here's the story of my really whacked weekend. i can't believe i actually survived it. it's all so si bei heng.

friday.

had to go to the mess because of the retarded yet rather gratifying 'happy hour'. this one was entitled 'ladies night', quite a oxymoron i fancy as there are like, less than 10 females? dumb huh? oh well, they held this 'grooming talk' for the first part and a belly-dance performance after. needless to say, i didn't stay for the latter. got a sms earlier in the day about dinner with the guys. haha, guess the timing just wasn't that right. tried to sleep early. slept for what seemed like an eternity only to awake finding the time to be 0100H. crap.

saturday.

which brings me to the 0100H. woke up. couldn't for the love of ... go back to sleep. decided to do something constructive with my time - i went to watch anime. LoL. found this one that terence had recommended through the manga. (Shakugan no Shana) i really cannot believe how addicted i am to these things. (sorta reminds me of harris) anyway, my saturday sucked. i came down with a fever. of course it started with a cough (no.. not a kiss), which became a sore throat, which beget a flu, then spawned a fever. it was horrible. needed to ice myself with those blue-colored-things-you-throw-in-the-fridge-to-chill. after some more medication and rest, the headache went away. was still feeling rather hot under the collar, but i managed to sleep it off... i think. i was damn demoralised. race day was 1 freaking day away.

sunday.

"Far better is it to dare mighty things, to win glorious triumphs, even though checked by failure...than to rank with those poor spirits who neither enjoy much nor suffer much, because they live in a gray twilight that knows not victory nor defeat.”
RACE DAY! woke up at around 0430H to grab my gear and head out to meet my friend and driver for this event. it was then i found out that he already ate breakfast. whilst i was wondering why he didn't ask that same question. nuts. headed down to the changi exhibition centre. looks damn new, damn big, damn crowded. even at 0600H there were throngs of cars and people. some warming up, some pinning up their race bibs, other scanning the area for missing friends. as the sun came up (the view.. breathtaking) and the gentle rays warmed the earth below, i knew it was go time. up to then, i was still having second thoughts about running. what if i collapse? what if i can't make it? what if i get a sudden onset of fever? the next thing i knew, i was already at the start point along with the thousands of other crazy nuts who run for fun. as the president took his place at the podium, the announcement was made. runners ready... Go! moving past the start point i managed to give his excellency a wave. never looked back to see if he reciprocated. the run was pretty thrilling. moving past people. grabbing the 100 plus and water at the drink points and throwing the cups like some wanna-be-marathon-guy. the hardest, most challenging part would be the 1km on the sand along changi beach. damn thing was so hard to run on. i thought it was going on forever. anyway, past the half-way mark, i manage to catch up to this bunch of chai running in front. without warning, one of them in red darted out in front of the rest. i quickly followed, for reasons other than speed, and soon neared to the finish point. poor chai, kenna overtaken at the last 300m. oh well. finished! 10km. headed immediately to the drink station and grabbed 2 cans of 100 plus and 1 bottle of ice mountain. did the advised stretching and took about half and hour to find my friend. super crowded. super lots of things to see/gaze/stare.
now i'm at home. typing this out. feeling the aching feeling all over my body. ouch.
was it worth it.. running while recovering from a fever? HELL YEAH!
would i do it again? HELL YEAH!
my dear red chai... or rather... too many chai. haha. i love runners. woo!

so that's my weekend. the bad... turned good. Life is fair. =)

----------------------------------------------------------------------------
Update: I finally cooked my Japanese Curry with rice. Oshii!

2007-10-14T20:41:00.000-07:00

finally. i'm done with the video. stupid computer. hanged on me TWICE. without me saving!
but after all the cursing and swearing. here it is... the RAINBOW GAME'S DAY Video. enjoy.

2007-10-03T03:50:00.000-07:00

yay! i'm on leave. AGAIN.
haha. seems like just a couple months ago that i was on leave. and what a wasted period it was. so unproductive. so mundane. so boring.
i promised myself i'd never misuse my leave. but it has happened again! i just threw away my first day of sweet freedom. nuts.

你爱我妈?! OMG. haha. you wanna know why that left a super big impression on me?
it's cause the joke aint mine. i saw it on the telly. i was doing the night shift at work and we watched that sunday variety show, they had that female group on as the musical guests. so when the host asked what they would be singing, he commented like i just did. haha. i was so disturbed by that, i must have laughed the whole night long. even thinking of that gives me the chuckles. weird huh.

okok. procrastination ceases here. i gotta plan my 2 more days of glorious leave.
day 2 - 1. go and take a hike in the morning for some fresh air.
2. go down to that stupid BBDC.
3. go to the library and borrow more comics.
4. go 'study'. LoL. private joke.
5. clarke quay for some private business.
6. who knows where the night will take me.

day 3 - 1. morning TBC
2. Funan / anywhere for some PSP game hunts.
3. evening TBC

time for some action. woo hoo.

2007-09-30T05:02:00.000-07:00

are you feeling bored?
too much free time on your hands?
why not 'sing to destress'? quote's SY
see the song on the left?
the video?
CLICK it. now. sing along if you want to. hum if you want to.

it's a really sweet song. at least i think so. i wanted to use this song for the previous video but i thought it didn't really fit the theme i set for it. so looks like i'm gonna save it for now. was thinking of using it for a 'romantic' kinda theme, but seems like all the photos dun really match. guess i'll be storing it for a long time. maybe i'll use it for your birthday? i can almost picture the scenes, the flow of the storyline, the transitions. perfect.

it's the opening theme song for the anime romeo x juliet. i think it fits the show like a glove. from the setting to the characters. incredible how the music can stir up feelings for the two 'star-crossed' lovers caught between their individual destinys and their combined love for each other. so sad isn't it. the story of romeo and juliet. ever wonder if such a love happens in real life?

2007-09-27T05:24:00.000-07:00

i had some free time today and so i decided to surf around and see what's up.

seems like some people aren't feeling too good. must be the cold.

check out the new 'depression' article.
http://myspiritfliestoyou.blogbeam.com/

cheers all. weekends are coming.

2007-09-24T05:33:00.000-07:00

it's another weekend gone...
it's another birthday passed...
it's another graduation from M to O.

soon, all will fade, and a new year will begin.
to renew all things passed.

anyway, it's time for my video. Enjoy.

2007-09-16T07:55:00.000-07:00

oh yeah. before i forget.

I'M GOING BACK TO AIR FORCE SCHOOL! YAY!

haha. finally. time to go back. back to the times of fellowship. of sleeping in the classrooms. of goofing around with pals. of seemingly endless tea breaks. of parades mirred with laughter. of having PROPER weekend breaks without shift work. of putting squadron pride and honor on the line against all others.

08 OCT - 05 NOV 2007. the best is yet to be.

"oei. go air force one play pool leh."

"pool your head lah. auntie, 1 chicken cutlet!!!!"

2007-09-16T07:50:00.000-07:00

OMG OMG OMG!

they're coming out with a 2nd Bleach movie. *faints from excitement* plus from the looks of the poster, it'll be christmas time. what i wouldn't give to watch it (with english subs of course). haha. looks like fast becoming a super otaku, watching anime like there's no tomorrow. hmm.. but i don't read manga. *note to self: learn to read manga*

anyway, it's been another boring weekend for me. boring relative to the activities of others held over similar periods of time.

okie, so my officer's wedding dinner was kinda fun. i saw my starfishes, the crabs, the golden chocolate bars. alas, no mangoes. how disappointing. food was good. i think i ate too much. they serve this thingy for desert. i can't recall the name, but the guy seated next to me told me it was made from the stuff that frogs spit out. i have no idea how anyone would be able to harvest that, let alone making it a desert. whatever. anyone knows what i'm referring to please tell me more.

i hate lazy sundays, they make me feel useless. will someone suggest to me something to do. i'm so bored.

2007-09-13T06:06:00.000-07:00

i was watching the Bleach movie released some time ago.
it's called Bleach: Memories of Nobody
i like the bleach series, so for me, this was great. haha. i love fan-subs.

anyway, the thing i wanted to say was that i found the ending theme song very inspirational. i dunno, but something in the lyrics felt dear to me. so i thought i'd share it with everyone. as i type, i'm uploading the song unto imeem which i hope i can play on the blog.

i guess many people can associate with the song, but very few will know it.

here goes.

"Sen no Yoru wo Koete" by Aqua Timez

愛されたい　でも　愛そうとしない
その繰り返しのなかを彷徨って
僕が見つけた答えは一つ　怖くたって　傷ついたって
好きな人には好きって伝えるんだ

あなたが僕を愛してるか　愛してないか
なんてことは　もうどっちでもいいんだ
どんなに願い望もうが
この世界には変えられぬもんが　沢山あるだろう
そう　そして僕があなたを　愛してるという事実だけは
誰にも変えられぬ真実だから

千の夜をこえて　あなたに伝えたい
伝えなきゃならないことがある
愛されたい　でも　愛そうとしない
その繰り返しのなかを彷徨って
僕が見つけた答えは一つ　怖くたって
傷ついたって　好きな人には好きって伝えるんだ
気持ちを言葉にするのは怖いよ
でも　好きな人には好きって伝えるんだ

この広い世界で　巡り会う喜びを言葉じゃ言い表せないね
だから僕達は微笑み　色鮮やかに過ぎる秋をドレミで唄って
冬を背に　春の木漏れ日を待ち
新しく生まれ変わる　誰かを守るようにと

来た道と行き先　振り返ればいつでも　臆病な目をしていた僕
向き合いたい　でも　素直になれない
まっすぐに相手を愛せない日々を
繰り返しては　ひとりぼっちを嫌がったあの日の僕は
無傷のままで人を愛そうとしていたい

千の夜をこえて　今あなたに会いに行こう
伝えなきゃならないことがある
愛されたい　でも　愛そうとしない
その繰り返しのなかを彷徨って
僕が見つけた答えは一つ　怖くたって
傷ついたって　好きな人には好きって伝えるんだ
その思いが叶わなくたって　好きな人に好きって伝える
それはこの世界で一番素敵なことさ

haha. of course i included translations. except for those 'special' people who take japanese lessons at university, they would already be able to figure it out. LoL. kidding. =)

"I want to be loved, but you don’t seem to love me
I wander within that repetition
I found one answer; that even if I’m scared, even if I’m hurt
I can say “I love you” to the person who I love..

Do you love me? Do you not love me?
As for things like that, it’s already fine either way
No matter how I wish
There are many unchangeable things in this world, right?
That’s right, and because only the fact of my loving you
Is the truth unchangeable by anyone.

I want to overcome the thousands of nights and tell it to you
There is something that I must tell you
I want to be loved, but you don’t seem to love me
I wander within that repetition
I found one answer; that even if I’m scared
Even if I’m hurt, I can say “I love you” to the person who I love..
It’s scary to turn my feelings into words
But I can say “I love you” to the person who I love..

In this broad world, I can’t express the joy of encountering you with words
So we smile, sing about the vividly passing autumn in do-re-mi
Turn our backs on winter, wait for the sunlight streaming through trees in spring
And become reborn anew, so that we can protect someone...

On the path we came from and our destination,
when we looked back,
I’d always have timid eyes
I want to face you, but I can’t be honest
I, who repeated days of not being able to straightforwardly love my partner
And hated being alone on that day
Seemed to love people while unwounded.

I’ll overcome the thousands of nights and go meet you now
There is something that I must tell you
I want to be loved, but you don’t seem to love me.
I wander within that repetition
I found one answer; that even if I’m scared
Even if I’m hurt, I can say “I love you” to the person who I love
Even if those thoughts aren’t fulfilled,
I can say “I love you” to the person who I love.
It’s the most wonderful thing in this world."

i love you. something i probably will never find the courage to say.

2007-09-12T05:40:00.000-07:00

i feel like a peanut.
because i'm a nut in a shell.

i feel like a mochi.
because i'm all powder on the surface, but oozes goodness inside.

i feel like a cookie.
because all that buttery crispness hides a sweetness within.

i feel like a bunny.
because i hop onto things faster than i know what they really are.

i feel like a night. (no it's not a typo. thanks.)
because when i'm out, so the stars will be also.

i feel like a tear.
because...

.... without it, i wouldn't know how to feel like a smile. =)

2007-09-11T05:45:00.000-07:00

went to my base dental care yesterday.
had 1 of my wisdom teeth removed via extraction.
i must say that the dentist was a super-nice guy.
everything went very well and it was rather painless.
=)

2007-09-08T23:22:00.000-07:00

it's time for me to blog. haha. this time i'm gonna try to do it super picture style. but remember, the pictures are just for reference... they are NOT really what happened. cool? ok. 開始!

there. done. 終えられる!

2007-09-04T06:02:00.000-07:00

It's my birthday. Yay me!
haha. seems like turning 20 has already made my skin THAT MUCH THICKER!
oh well, limme just say that my birthdays, for the years that i've been faithfully serving my country, have been ABSOLUTELY normal. in fact, if not for the copious amounts of SMSes, i would myself believe that it's probably just another day. okie, granted my family does prepare me such special celebratory food and cake, the rest of the day passes by like just another busy day at the office. this is the 2nd year in a row that i've spent (what by most regular human standards is suppose to be) my 'special' day doing the plain old tasks of everyday. nuts.

what the heck happened to things like the 'birthday off-in-lieu'?

what happened to the tradition of granting lessen manning to the 'birthday boy'?

craps. anyway, i saw something today that turned out to be the most wonderfully sinful present of them all. here goes the true story.
"i have a friend. his name is W******, he works in the camp next to mine and was a classmate during my first year at J**, lets call him W for the rest of this story.
i was on my way home from work today and i approached my base bus-stop as usual. i was toying around with my handphone, replying everyone's thoughtful birthday wishes, when my other friend, some indian brother, lets call him K nudged me and told me that someone was smiling (and sorta waving) at me from across the road. arousing my curiousity from my handphone, i turned up and was shocked yet mildly surprised to see W. he was his usual qwerky self (he hasn't changed much i'm sure) and gave me his old crooked smile. then it happened. for a spilt second i thought i would die laughing.
the thing was this --- his head was turned towards me the whole time... even when he was walking. what he didn't realise (neither did i) was that he was gonna...

WALK STRAIGHT INTO THE LAMP POST NEXT TO THE BUS STOP!

K was so stunned when he bonked his head that he screamed bloody murder and laughed damn loud. i caught his infectious laughter and produced a surpressed laugh that probably sounded like a giggle. neither of us could believe how uber blur W was. even his reaction when he finally realised what happened was so hilarious we bursted out laughing AGAIN. even thinking about it now brings me a chuckle. haha."

Morale of the story... watch where you're going.
i only thought things like that happened in dramas or movies. oh well. =)

2007-08-02T07:06:00.000-07:00

It's been so long...
Time passes so fast...
National Day is coming up...

Here's my Tribute to NDP 07. Enjoy.

Happy 42nd Birthday Singapore!

2007-07-20T07:54:00.000-07:00

such a sick sick week.
oh. the weather didn't help much either.
rainy weather's never a good thing when you're sick and sleepy.
i guess it's my "sick period" for this year.
don't you get 1 every year? a period of time when no matter what you do, you end up having the special kind of illness combination that takes awhile to recover? but after that 1 bout of virus fighting... when the antibiotics fade... it's back to normal, never to return until next year?

ever get that feeling? i do. i think.

oh well... that's just me.

plus, i guess staying at home does have it's merits. i found this really nice song. =)

2007-06-26T05:10:00.000-07:00

i found a nice song... i first heard it while watching "History Boys" a couple of days ago, and just couldn't get the song out of my head. the words are so meaningful. haha. i'm just a sentimental nut.

here's Frank Sinatra's

Bewitched.
She's a fool and don't I know it?
But a fool can have her charms
I'm in love and don't I show it?
Like a babe in her arms

Love's the same old sad sensation
Lately, I've not slept one wink
Since this silly situation
Has me on the blink

I'm wild again, beguiled again
A simpering, whimpering child again
Bewitched, bothered, and bewildered am I.

Couldn't sleep, wouldn't sleep
Then love came and told me I shouldn't sleep
Bewitched, bothered, and bewildered am I.

Lost my heart, but what of it?
She is cold, I agree
She might laugh, but I love it
Although the laugh's on me

I'll sing to her, bring spring to her
And long for the day when I'll cling to her
Bewitched, bothered and bewildered am I.

to the special gal that has me 'bewitched'... this one's for you.

2007-06-24T00:09:00.000-07:00

i have had a really boring weekend. picture this - you wait, you think you are. yet you aren't.
anyway, i watched 3 movies last night. finally gave into the movie-craving. the first one was a HK comedy/drama (Love is Not all Around). the second was a real inspiration to me. it's like unlocking a door that leads you to rediscovering yourself and what you truly love doing (The History Boys). the third one was basically something i wanted to watch to kill time with. some crazed b-list comedy (Let's Go to Prison). enough about this weekend. it was a train-wreck waiting to happen.

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The Beach (Bitch) Story - Sammy "Shinji" Koh

buzz buzz. the handphone's vibrations were loud enough to wake the dead. joelyn woke with a smirk on her face.

"it's time", she thought to herself, "finally... he's free to come out."

adam was as close as she would ever get to dating a superstar. his good looks and charm were all part of the package that made him irresistable to women. he was her classmate in high school and now even when she is a working woman, they meet up occasionally with friends. she always had a crush on adam. he was a close friend, the kind that you would never expect to build a BGR with, but yet sometimes love happens. call it the hormones or the smell of spring, but somewhere down their long time together, a relationship blossomed.

"such sweet sorrow", she wondered, "how i can hold two hands at once."

joelyn was attached. she met ben a couple of months ago at a friend's party and they've stuck to each other ever since. ben was a carefree guy, working hard to provide for her needs and wishes. he worked overtime on many occasions just to save up enough for a candle-light dinner for two at a posh restaurant. he treated her like a princess, fulfilled her every need. maybe not EVERY need. he was the common family man, holding the age old philosophy of work-home-work. he was predictable, lost his sense of adventure and excitement when he decided to settle down with her. "i'll marry her one day", he quipped to himself, "for sure the girl i marry will be her."

"meet me downstairs", adam's soft sultry voice made her hair bristle with anticipation, "i'll be there in about ten minutes."

"grrr..." adam's dog sat in the back seat growling at a mysterious metal object. when it grew into a full out barking session, adam decided an intervention was needed. stopping the car, he gave the poor pooch a quick pat on the head. sensing his master's displeasure, the white dog crouched low, weighing the odds of a spanking. as the silence crept in, adam saw as his dear canine companion looked as remorseful as ever. after a quick scratch, they were back on the road.

"come down you ready"... "that's got to be the funniest sms i've ever read", joelyn smiled. she loved how adam was always so seemingly crazy yet so comforting and reliable when he needed to be. she took her time like she always did, slowly combing her brown hair, adding a touch of make-up. "perfect", she complimented herself as she re-applied her lip gloss.

adam stared as she walked towards his car. he licked his lips as he watched her sashe pass the driver's window, her hips moving seductively whilst tossing her hair behind her. she entered the vehicle with a "hey adam" that sent whiffs of perfume streaming into the car. intoxicated and allured, they were off and on their way to East Coast Park.

quiet evenings were always adam's preference. he hated crowds and going to places chocked full of people made him uneasy. he liked the simple emptiness of the park at night. t'was a cloudy night, the rain clouds gathering he reckoned. nevertheless it was the company that made him feel most at ease. he held her hand as he took a deep breath of the crisp night air. holding her always made him feel secure, for he loved her... he truly did.

they walked towards the beach, hands swaying to the rhythm of the waves crashing against the pier. suddenly a strong gale blew between them, the force of which brought a obvious chill to joelyn. adam held onto her hand, but felt the freezing cold that now ran through her. his mind raced thinking of a way to bring her some warmth. "my jacket!", he thought, "that should do perfectly." he started to walk towards the car, when joelyn grabbed him and hugged him tightly. "well, this is a much better idea." he mused as he regained his composure and returned the hug with equal vigor. this was the first time they've had physical contact. with them it has always remained very civil, adam playing the part of the gentleman and joelyn his lady. but this brought new meaning to their relationship. he felt her soft hands returning with their warmth, her breath on his neck heated against the chill of the night. she continued with the embrace and adam was more than willing to provide it.

the stillness was marred with the sound of a piano playing in the background. a piano? in east coast park? the though eluded him as he regained his focus on the moment at hand. here he was, with the woman of his dreams wrapped in his arms. "what could possibly spoil this?" he pondered.

joelyn was happy. she was ecstatic at the prospect of finally moving on with adam. she always wondered if he would ever make the first move, but this night she took things into her own hands. she wanted adam. this was her chance.

"let's play a game. i call it the 'magical-tap-game'. it's really very simple. if i tap you on the right shoulder, you become a rock and cannot move - just like a rock. however if i tap you on the left shoulder, you become invisible and have to play the part as well."

"sure. i'd love to play that."

adam steadied himself. he raised his hand and tapped joelyn on her left shoulder.

"you're invisible now. i can't see you." adam cooed and was greeted with giggles.

"and it's because you're not here that i can find the courage... to tell you how i truly feel about you. i know we've had a rocky past and a mis-timed present, but i want us to have a brighter future... together. invisible-joelyn, i just want to tell you... that i love you." he whispered the words to her ears and closed his eyes waiting for a response. he flinched as he felt her hands cupping his face. she looked at him with teary eyes, her lips mouthing the words - "i love you".

like when floodgates open, tears came down both their cheeks as they embraced once more. her heart beating to his. they finally found the one thing in their lives that was missing - true love.

joelyn felt a tap on her right shoulder. she turned only to find it was adam's hand.

"i tapped your right shoulder, so now you're a rock. and you can't move at all." he said as he moved her body into a straight position.

"rocks can't see their surroundings either, so you have to close your eyes." adam stressed as he covered up her eyes.

he leaned forward, the smell of the perfume on her neck distracting him for a moment, with one hand he brushed her hairs to the side and with the other he softly glided his fingers over her lips. then in one last move, he pressed his lips against hers.

joelyn was surprised and secretly thrilled by his sudden courage. she felt the warmth from his lips slowly heating up her own. she relished moments like this. instances that seem so simple, yet become memories that last forever.

their passionate lip-lock enveloped the rest of their evening. something that neither would object to. for who would among you deny the course of true love?

The End.

Post-note:
Adam eventually won over joelyn's heart. ben's love life? wait for the next story.
they shared a warm cup of milo while waiting for the clouds to dissipate.
the poor pooch was left stranded in the car. the SPCA was called in.

All events are completely fictional. If you think they are based on real life occurances, then you must realize that it is COMPLETELY coincidental.

2007-06-19T20:23:00.000-07:00

Haha. Finally.. i'm posting a Busted song.

It's sucha shame that the band has spilt up. oh well.

they've got so many nice songs that i wanna have...

Runaway Train. (nice slow song)

Psycho Girl. (love the lyrics)

Falling for You. (love the beat)

Loner in Love. (BEST song ever!)

SOMEONE HELP ME FIND THEM PLEASE! =)

"I'm way too scared to phone her..
Realise I'm a loner in love..
It's still the same old story..
Tears of morning glory no luck...
That's the reason why my life sucks..
very much..
Being a loner in love..."

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Update: Check out "Late Night Sauna". Another freaking hilarious song.

2007-06-17T20:47:00.000-07:00

it's official!
I'M NOT LONGER A TRAINEE! yay me!
time to enjoy my life as a specialist.

haha. that's just a bit of info about my day.
anyway, i was at camp one day when my co-worker played this song...

PLEASE BE ADVISED THAT IS CONTAINS EXPLICIT CONTENT.
CLICK AT YOUR OWN RISK (for your sanity as well as mine)

done? cool. you've been punk'd, well not really, maybe sorta.
see? listening to songs like that just give you brain damage. your vocab will just shrink to one word (you dunno the word? play the song AGAIN). haha.

i was just looking through the papers this morning and i realized that there are SO many movies that are out and that i havent even gotten the chance to WATCH! i need some movies...

Shrek 3? anyone? ms green's not counted.
haha... get it? green & shrek. see the connection? ogres. haha.

Ocean's 13?
wait wait... you mean you watch english movies that actually need you to pay attention to what they are saying? LoL.

Fantastic 4: Rise of the silver surfer?
haha. comic book fan-boys? watch a blonde jessica alba?

Transformers?
ohh... nuts. it aint' out yet.

The Simpsons Movie?
homer! duh'O!

Harry Potter And the Order of the Phoenix?
haha. i know someone who would be dying to watch this.

2007-06-13T05:18:00.000-07:00

hitting the healthy lifestyle diet this week.
looks like my whole office is set for a revival in training.
we are motivated to go for gruelling 5 km runs, even after a whole day of work.
they find the strength to do gym training after completing stress inducing crap from higher management.
plus we now eat loads of fruits. no sugar. no fizzy drinks. water and fruits.

damn. this is good.

i cannot believe this. it's really incredible. probably no one (less people from this line of work will understand what i mean) can even come close to comprehending the wonderful feeling of finishing the work set before you. handing over to the next guy, ralling your co-workers and going for a run.
the cost: sore muscles, tired bodies, profused sweating
the feeling after: excellent

looks like i'm running on a real high here. my training is almost over. the finishing line is so close i can feel it. i just need to endure the last and final hurdle before i enter the blissful protection of no longer being a trainee.

c'mon. no surrender.

2007-06-10T21:08:00.000-07:00

I draw dead squids!

haha. interesting isn't it? i'm getting pretty good at it too. its actually a rather funny story of how i came to draw dead squids.

"T'was a warm sunny day in the small town of bb. the sunlight blinded the poor fisherman at the wharf as they dragged their catch unto the wooden deck of the wharf. Plop. the sound of wet, juicy squids as they landed one after another into the red pail of the poor sushi boy. thanks old-smelly-fisherman-uncle! the boy rode off into the village where he prepared the table to cook his calamari. Nuts. the squid where all alive and wriggling in the pail. Crap. i need to kill them, but how? [Lightbulb moment] i'll draw a dead squid so the others will follow the picture and become dead! and so the legend spread, of the brave sushi boy and his dead squid drawings. now people will forever live with the knowledge that squids are really dumb."

that's kinda the summarised version.

anyway, i'll now show you how to draw your very own DEAD squid.

Step 1. Get yourself (or your very bored sibling/friend/parent... yes this can be a group activity) a pen (preferably a marker) and a piece (or more if you so desire) of paper.

Step 2. Draw out the body of the squid. it can be big and fat, long and skinny. use your imagination and come up with really weird squid-like shapes. mine is a regular medium sized fat squid (best for cooking calamari).

Step 3. Complete the body by adding the "legs" of the squid. it's best to use small balls to give it a really cute-looking shape. mine's kinda fugly but who cares? calamari's delicious.

Step 4. Add in the details like the "nose" of the squid. c'mon, everyone (hopefully) knows that squids do not have "noses". but this ain't a scientific drawing. this is to kill squids. p.s. squids are kinda dumb.

Step 5. The final step. the culmination of all your hardwork through the past 4 steps. it's time... to add the "dead eyes". it's so idiot-proof even your dog could do it (if trained). add the two X.X and it's DONE! so now sit back and enjoy the deep fried calamari goodness. yummy.

For the animal activists... here's a bone for you too. cute ain't it?

squids love heaven. send them there. =)

2007-06-08T22:05:00.000-07:00

It's a lazy saturday.
So weird, feels so much like a sunday than a saturday. It just doesnt have that special saturday vibe i guess. Supposed to go to the zoo. Well, it WAS a plan. but plans changes. Anyway, seems like everyone is getting a new phone. Heck, i wanna new phone too! what good is a phone that's new but sits in a small dark corner of my room doing absolutely nothing but collecting dust (which i would then have to clean off).

anyway... since i'm idling my time away. i thought of an idea. i'm gonna create a playlist.
so here's sammy's special rock playlist.
(will someone be a darling and send me the songs with an *... thanks =D)

Addicted - Simple Plan
Papercut - Linkin Park
It's Not Over - Daughtry
Better Together - Jack Johnson*
Blurry - Puddle of Mudd*
Broken - Seether
Summer of '69 - Bryan Adams*
Come Home Soon - Corey Crowder*
Superman - David Gray*
Angels and Devils - Dishwalla*
Here Without You - 3 Doors Down*
Make You Smile - Plus 44*
Every Little Thing - Dishwalla*
Hero - Nickelback*
I Hate Everything About You - Three Days Grace*
Breathe - Breaking Benjamin
Move Along - All American Rejects
It's Been Awhile - Stained*
It Ends Tonight - All American Rejects
Lips Of An Angel - Hinder
Ocean Avenue - Yellow Card
You're Beautiful - James Blunt
The Kill - 30 Seconds to Mars*
Stars - Switchfoot
Lights And Sounds - Yellow Card
Savin' Me - Nickelback
Used to - Daughtry
Numb - Linkin Park
Learning to Let Go - Corey Crowder*
Scars - Papa Roach*
Better Than Me - Hinder*
Let Me Go - 3 Doors Down*
Let You Down - Three Days Grace*
Lights - Journey*
Meant to Live - Switchfoot
I don't Love You - My Chemical Romance*
Only One - Yellow Card
What I've Done - Linkin Park
Nothing Good About Goodbye - Hinder*
Perfect - Simple Plan
Over You - Daughtry
Pieces - Sum 41*
She Fucking Hates Me - Puddle of Mudd*
Someday - Sugar Ray*
Snow (Hey yo) - Red Hot Chilli Peppers
Through the Glass - Stone Sour
From Yesterday - 30 Seconds to Mars*
Famous Last Words - My Chemical Romance
Was it a dream - 30 Seconds to Mars*
Diary Of Jane - Breaking Benjamin
Valentine's Day - Linkin Park
When I'm Gone - 3 Doors Down*
Wherever You May Go - The Calling*
With Arms Wide Open - Creed*
Baby Come On - Plus 44*
Love You to Death - Kill Hannah*
When She Smiles - Matchbox 20*
Stolen - DashBoard Confessional*
Forever - Papa Roach*
Home - Daughtry

That's it. Peace.

2007-06-02T23:40:00.000-07:00

Now... to the more important news.
i was robbed. can you believe it? a nice innocent chinese boy like me. ROBBED!
it's always most shocking when you experience it firsthand.

the weeks been pretty alright. spending lots of money of things i absolutely do not need. going to places i absolutely do not need to go. hell.. it was fun. well, you know what they say "all good things come to an end".
let me know try my hardest to recall the absolute nothing-ness that is my mind.

OMG! i know realise how senile people must feel. to tell you the truth i cannot recall where or what i did on monday and tuesday. even wednesday's memories elude me.

i do have faint traces of some places though.
i'll just put them in 1 word or 1 phrase.

sister. heeren. door bitch. rip curl flip-flops. raffles city SC. minutes to midnight. daughtry. katharine mcphee. pizza. super creamy mushroom pasta. chervons. swimming. 2 towels. forgot my trunks. paid $5 for stupid army trunks. vivocity. superdogs. strangers. eurodance. e-type. bunny attempt no. 1. teng teng. sex...oops.. six avenue. green tea with japanese cherry. uno-stacko ownage. bad blisters. supposed cycling (BIG joke here). incredible rainy weather. lazy bums on msn. dinner. yoshi. hair-problems (giggles uncontrollably). starbucks. mango tazro tea. lonely train home. newton food center. pointing in different directions to confused already confused tourists. XO ba chor mee. anything. headache. ice cream. friends. SBS 183. wx house. pepsi. worse headache. ginger tea. white and black dogs. bluff. love bluff. no music com hanged. JW black label. super taxi uncle no. 1. sleepy people on msn. 1 down buying furniture. 1 down sick. 1 sitting at home watching Liar Game. vivocity. hopeless shoe shopping friends. harbor front. sakae sushi. watching poor old man through the window. singing that mud song. thinks teng teng should do it with a guitar. tenzaru soba.. OISHII! actually, not really. pigeon egg. countless failed attempts to cook said egg. finally broke said egg's yolk. sadistic females. bunny attempy no. 2. monorail. sentosa. rum & raisin. bitch...oops..beach. sandy. mangoes galore. bitchy bus uncle. super taxi uncle no. 2.

that's my week. sorta. there're just somethings that cannot be put into words.

wow. how quickly 1 week of leave just disappears and the war starts again.
oh well... back to the fray.

I was ROBBED! of my time.

2007-06-02T23:23:00.000-07:00

have you ever felt robbed?

to have something special snatched away from you in a cruel twist of fate?

to leave you distressed, sad... alone.

you feel that pinch of pain.. that utter desperation.

then you come to the painful realisation...

you were mugged.

stolen from you was your most precious of possessions. worth more than silver or gold. an item more valuable than life itself. you feel the need like a drug. you always want more and more. it's an addiction of the worst kind. being helpless and alone. who else can you turn to?

friends? futile in scenarios such as this.

family? only another crumbling wall in its wake.

religion? not unless you're a chees-tian or a choco-lim (i dun wan ISA or MSD knocking on my door) can the Big Cheese or ChocoLah save you from this fate.

the only hope for the world...

the salvation for ages past...

it's her.

Strawberry Shortcake and her kitten Custard.

2007-05-30T22:33:00.000-07:00

help me.
i think i'm suffering from "target fixation".

[Source Wikipedia: Target fixation is a process by which the brain is focused so intently on an observed object that awareness of other obstacles or hazards can diminish. Also, in an avoidance scenario, the observer can become so fixated on the target that the observer will end up colliding with the object.]

imagine you like this gal.
she's sweet. she's pretty. she's intelligent. she's everything you aren't.
you think of her. even though you're not very close.
you see her smile. your heart skips a beat.
you see her laugh. your heart skips two beats.
you see her look at you. your heart stops beating. haha.

how to get rid of target fixation. i spoke to some fighter pilots and i found out from what they told me, there are 2 ways to rid yourself of it.

1. get more rest. crew rest is important to safety and will ensure that you are able to stay alert and ready to make choices when they come. it also helps you to overcome the problem by focusing your thoughts somewhere else. see? sleep doesn't help.

2. get the target. you won't be fixated on something that is no longer a target right?

how to let you know how i feel about you?
how to even get close enough to tell you?
that's the hardest part.

2007-05-27T06:07:00.000-07:00

Felt the urge today...
the need...
the constipated feeling...
so i did the only thing that comes naturally when such sensations arise...
I BLOG!

haha. crap. need a better sense of humor. so twisted.
anyways. there goes the weekends. here comes my LEAVE WEEK! yay! great balls of fire.

just as luck would have it, the GSS is on now too. haha. guess i'll be spending my time shopping.
anyone wanna come out for some retail therapy?

oh yeah, i've got a new blog song. guess those familar with the J-drama Pride would know this song. haha.

time to train up my ice skating skills. hee hee.
anyone wanna come along?

2007-05-06T02:35:00.000-07:00

funny things happen.
quite a satisfying weekend. i'm rather happy.
long legs?

it's funny moments like those that give me that warm fuzzy feeling inside.
just like my new blog song. it's back to that old retro rock and roll vibe.
back to the good old days. (okay, granted i'm rather young to say that... but it's true)

so sit back, grab a cuppa. relax, take a good long look out the window.. and enjoy the music.

Angel - Aerosmith
I'm alone
Yeah, I don't know if I can face the night
I'm in tears and the cryin' that I do is for you
I want your love - Let's break the walls between us
Don't make it tough - I'll put away my pride
Enough's enough I've suffered and I've seen the light

[Chorus]
Baby
You're my angel
Come and save me tonight
You're my angel
Come and make it all right

Don't know what I'm gonna do
About this feeling inside
Yes it's true - Loneliness took me for a ride
Without your love - I'm nothing but a begger
Without your love - a dog without a bone
What can I do I'm sleeping in this bed alone

[Chorus]
Come and save me tonight

You're the reason I live
You're the reason I die
You're the reason I give
When I break down and cry
Don't need no reason why

Baby , Baby
[Chorus]

You're my angel
Come and save me tonight
you're my angel
Come and take me alright
Come and save me tonight,
Come and save me tonight,
Come and save me tonight,
Come and save me tonight,
Come and save me tonight...

2007-05-05T00:37:00.000-07:00

finally managed to watch that korean movie... 200 Pound beauty.
haha.. so much hype about it through friends and co-workers. they spoke of it as though it was the most miraclous thing they ever witnessed. but now that i've finally caught it. it ain't all that bad really. no wonder one of them commented "you'll love the soundtrack". they were damn right. her voice was great. her songs were beautiful.
but come to think of it. this show is really evil. i'll explain why.

1. it portrays the mentality that physical flaws can be corrected by surgery. this is ironic given the context in which the movie was created in. korea already has the highest amount of plastic surgery done in the world. and movies like this only seem to be flaunting that unhealthy title.

2. not very good for young impressionable teens who will now view plastic surgery as an okay thing to do. not exactly taboo when the lead actor embraces the fact that plastic surgery is okay and that relationships are based on looks alone.

well... enough of that. i've been hooked onto something far more addictive for me.
has anyone watched this j-drama "Engine"?
i think it's showing on Channel U too.
anyway... i think it's a wonderful show. so sweet. with just the right amount of comedy. i like this kinda drama. it appeals to me somehow. more than korean dramas that only have people crying. making up. crying. talking. crying again.
plus it's quite a 'feel-good' show. makes you feel so inspired after watching. alas.. i feel like a racer. LoL

ja mata ashita ne!

2007-04-29T05:49:00.000-07:00

what can i say about weekends?
they cause me to spend money. LoL.

next target...
my chopper. i wanna be a heli-boy.

so much temptation these days. it's very unhealthy. maybe i should go 'monk' over the next few weeks to save up. haha. probably go crazy after that. anyway, weekends are getting more fun. venturing into realms unknown is always exciting. it's like knowing only half a story - it always leaves you wanting more.

brief single word recaps for the weekends.
-central... yeah. AGAIN.
-waraku... sashimi... hot sake (probably would have been better is my seat was next to the %^&*$# window)
-mustafa... crowded... no mangoes =(
-crash... park bench... water puddle
-ckin2u... whahaS

next up... Spider-man 3! Tuesday Night 8.45PM! Lido 3! not gonna miss it for the world.

to all the poor university students mugging desperately for good grades, i salute you.
brave souls struggling against the system. just dun forget to remove your laptops and bags from the canteens and libraries so others can use them. =)
(TNP On Sunday 290407 Pg 10)

2007-04-25T04:48:00.000-07:00

Sumimasen!

haha. weird day today. rather freaky in retrospect.
so it started like any normal off shift day. i would go home. take a much needed hot shower and head out for my aimless but normally expensive wandering trips around singapore. so today i decided to go back to my roots.
ya know? cheena roots? cos like, i'm a chink?
so i get to chinatown, hop off the incredibly quick MRT ride. get to the place where they have the bunch of the stuff i wanna buy (hence forth called 'boys toys'). so the building i went to has about 4 shops selling boys toys. naturally i went into the one that displays most of the assembled boys toys so i wouldn't look like some dickhead just looking at the mountains of cardboard boxs pretending i know what i was doing. any way, after some window gazing, i vetured into the shop. the uncle was rather helpful. he seemed to know what he was doing. as expected of a veteran i suppose. i told him i was a beginner at this and asked for some recommendations. he pointed me to a rather medium sized one (i personally would have preferred something smaller cause it would be easier to travel with) and the medium one, for beginners costs..... SGD$500!
my gosh, i would have fallen off the chair, if i had sat on one. that's insane. it's not even some really professional looking ones that they use in those videos. i couldn't believe it. then the uncle, probably got the message by my stunned appearance, began ranting on how the price is competitive and how the other boys toys shops would have either cheaper knock-offs or have not as good parts. there is some truth in what he said, at least judging by the look of the thing, but i guess the best judge would be when it is really tested in a real live scenario.
so as you might expect. the famous shopping line people use when they have no real interest but are polite enough not to downright refuse you. "I'll think about it."

leaving the place, i ended up in vivocity, which was surprisingly only 6 bus stops away. haha. who knew?
bought myself a packet of tea. from what the tea salesperson recommended, this variety was for stressful people who need to relax. so it's pretty calming. took 2 cups after dinner, now i feel like sleeping already. the only downside - small 120g bag of tea mix cost SGD$35!
oh well. it was money well spent i suppose.

the funniest part of my day... the bus ride home.
i took the 188 bus from harbour front, as per normal. the only thing i didn't count on was the weather shifting from super hot at one point, to super heavy downpour at the next. given the perculiar change in weather, i fell fast asleep within minutes. one moment the bus was leaving the terminal pretty spartan, the next the bus was jammed pack full of school kids and 'older' school kids when i opened my eyes.
the weird part, however, was the seat next to me. i happened to find myself sitting at the emergency exit seat, which is slightly roomier than most normal seats. so i was shocked to find 2 small japanese school boys, 1 sitting on the other's lap and their female teacher standing in front of them in the seat next to mine.

l-------l l-------l <--- seats in front of mine
x
xx $
l------l l--------l <--- my seat

x - denotes the teacher in front of the 2 students

she looked like some psuedo-tour guide standing like that, with her hands holding onto the grab hold of the seat in front. anyway, it was just plain good manners that a guy would offer his seat when he sees a situation like that. so i asked (no no.. i didn't ask in nihongo, although i did say sumimasen, which i think caught her attention. LoL) whether she would like to take my seat. she politely refused and insisted that i should continuing sleeping.
*the sleepy me was soooo blur, i just nodded in agreement and fell asleep*
so the next time i woke up, the bus was even MORE crowded and i finally came to the realisation that she was just being polite to refuse my offer. how did i know this? i offered her the seat AGAIN, but this time... i took my butt of the seat while doing so. and the response? she gratefully sat immediately.
oh well, that's got to be my lesson learnt for the day.

ACTIONs speak LOUDER than WORDS.
especially to women. haha.
good day all.

2007-04-22T04:42:00.000-07:00

Your Birthdate: September 4

You don't love lightly. For you, love is always a serious undertaking.

However, you are able to love many types of people. You can bring out the best in almost anyone.

Love surprises you often. You never know when or where you'll find it next.

Number of True Loves You'll Have: 2

Number of Times You'll Have Your Heart Broken: 2

You are most compatible with people born on the 4th, 13th, 22nd, and 31st of the month.

What Does Your Birth Date Mean For Your Love Life?

aiyoh... seems like my love life is gonna be pretty bad. haha. woest me.

anyway, i got just enough time to throw in a quick entry before i hit the sack.

notice the new blog skin? cute huh? heex.

cause some people say i'm the blue one in the rainbow mah. LoL.

few words to sum up my day off on sunday.

west coast. bumblebee. fun. sweaty. chinatown. walnut paste. long walk. central.

2007-04-19T04:01:00.000-07:00

Back to Basics.

think of your life.
think of a place.
just 1 place. just 1 spot in your life.
where would you like to be?
yes, right now. this very instance. this exact moment in time.
ceteris paribus.
what do you see? a familar face? a special landmark?
do you look into your past? are you peering into the impending future?
or do you stand still. absolutely still.
a heart filled with no regrets. knowing that this is your time. your moment.

i'm going home.
to the place where i belong.
i wouldn't regret this life chose for me.

2007-04-02T05:27:00.000-07:00

it's been awhile.

how've you been?

busy-busy-busy... it's one of those periods where you experience the "work-sleep-work" kind of phase. haha. so this is what working life is really like. a non-stop bullet train. oh well.

so much to say... so little brain-power left to say it with.

the good things in my life now...

Blood+....
my new favourite anime. i think i have wasted most of my precious rest time watching this addictive anime. oh man... i still have 20 more episodes to go!
sometimes... watching monster get hacked up by some teenage vampire girl with her jewel-encrusted katana... is well, very appealing after a hard day at the office.

watching After Hours on mondays @ 10pm.
caught the pilot episode last monday. i think i'm hooked to that show. for some reason... it is incredible appealing. despite the crappy dialogue, the incessant try-too-hard slang of joanne peh... i find the show actually rather bearable. plus it has Linda Liao. drools.
and yes. that is her in our NEL mrt.
some beauty is required to cover the ugliness in life. =)

the sad things...
my favourite officer has left the base for greener pastures at HQ. so sad. will be going for his farewell dinner this thursday. gotta give him a really good time.
i can't believe he's gone. wasted precious talent in my opinion. but i wish him all the best.
CPT J. you will always be my favourite controller.

oooh... onto something a bit extra.
i was surfing some anime website and guess what i found.

the FIRST thought when i saw this was... HAHA. WHAT THE HELL.
i guess only some people will know what i'm talking about. but in any case. that was one super astounding discovery. i always thought that nickname was incredibly familar. haha.

no greater friend, no worst enemy.

2007-03-24T06:14:00.000-07:00

Poetic Justice...

nothing is what it seems. i guess that's a good thing. leaves more room for surprises.

don't you like surprises? the things that stir that special emotion in your heart. making you give that stupid grin, whilst your mind wanders into a sea of blissful pleasure. what a wonderful thought. if only it were true.

oh. have you noticed my new blog-song? haha. i think it blends so well with the very jap theme of the blog. all the plum blossoms and all. haha. plus the song's really relaxing with that little dash of sweetness and rock, that just brings out the passion of the singer.

now where's my green tea. XD

bought a new game today. rather entertaining.

they say a picture is worth a thousand words.

so here. take 2 thousand.

i think i was suffering from the "got weekend but nothing to do" syndrome and so in all fairness and sanity, i proceeded forth to redeem my time with a fairly intriging game i chanced upon on youtube. haha. wonderful the things that magic little website can do. haha. anyway, i bought it.. got home... ripped off the packaging and proceeded to sit on my couch and tap insanely at the psp buttons for 5 hours straight. i remember the only time i stopped (and swore quite a fair bit... 'cause i forgot to save) was when my psp battery suddenly died on me. nuts. from now on, i playing on the ac adaptor! haha.

how to describe the game? let's just say it's the grown man's version of pokemon. hehe.
there's a kid inside all of us. admit it. and sometimes, you just gotta give in to it.

i'm just a kid. =)

2007-03-23T04:45:00.000-07:00

haha.

it's the long-awaited weekends.

hmm... today's kinda good, kinda bad... mostly a mix of in-between emotions. i always find myself at a loss for words to describe this kinda mental state. it's like you want to feel a certain way... but you just can't seem to find that particular spark... that special cataylst to drive the reaction to it's fulfillment. oh well.

i had delicious Prawn Noodles for breakfast. amazing. to finish a long hard night of doing shift work, slogging away preparing the morning briefs to the brass, and to finally... yes, FINALLY... be able to get my ass outta there... out, and on to my craving since the night before. Nothing beats that kinda feeling. Absolutely nothing.

so we, my watch i/c and myself... oh right, my officers joined us too... drove from work to Adam's Rd to have a go at the "famous" prawn noodles. haha... it was out of this world. huge succulent prawns, slices of pork and delicious beehoon and yellow noodles. but the main draw... the soup. normal run-of-the-mill kopitiam prawn noodles will never taste the same again. haha. the guy that recommended going there (yes, i'm quite the mountain tortoise when it comes to where to find the best local cuisine) told me that the most impressive time to be there is actually at night. why? it's cos that's the time that the stall sells crabs to go with the prawn noodles. so it's technically crab-prawn noodles. haha. i have to go see that for myself some day.

oh right.. the bad.. kinda spoiler news...
heard from my mum that one of my aunts living in the states is critically ill and might be going under the knife. i don't want to go into details because... well... i want to respect her privacy and all the patient-doctor confidentiality stuff. but she's going for the operation soon i suppose. if it's night time here.. it's soon to be dawn there.
looks like i'm gonna have to spend the night in prayer.

a prayer for protection... a prayer for hope.

2007-03-19T21:58:00.000-07:00

Oh No!
i'm having blog trouble again...
it's so tough being a techno-noob. having to constantly rely on the technical expertise of those around you. to rectify the problems of today... one must think about the faults of tomorrow.

o.O oh! which reminds me. i had the same stupid trouble with all these "new" technologies at work. well, basically we suffered a "printer-out-of-order" problem. BIG headache. haha... but we all got through it. that's not the most annoying thing about this whole saga though. the GREATEST pain of a person, who in the middle of the night was running up and down the winding HQ steps retrieving pieces of papers, is that the fault... was all but A LOOSE WIRE CONNECTION!

i swear... when i saw the technician just pluck out the plug and put it back in...
the wirling sound of the printer's rollers starting up... the bright green LED light flashing rebelliously back at me... the fresh, warm inky smell of printed paper filling my nasal cavity...
i could have just DIED there and then.

@#$% printer. it cost me my good night's rest. nuts.
i will never rely on technology again. haha... who am i kidding... all i need is to be more pro-active in learning the ways of rectification.

it's actually rather exciting...
isolating the fault...
testing individual components...
removing the faulty application...
installing a new (possibly upgraded to prevent constant need for further rectification) part...

so much like life...
the complicated hardware we call our heart.

maybe it's us that needs to be rectified.

2007-03-15T05:26:00.000-07:00

it's coming to the weekends!

haha... suddenly feeling all fresh and ALIVE.

anyway, you know something has been bugging me the past week..

this nagging feeling at the back of my head...

the gnawing of a thought against my mind...

i haven't caught the movie - 300 yet!

the movie EVERYONE'S been talking about.

the number 1 movie in the US and in Singapore.

for a M18 movie to attract such huge crowds and attention is no small feat in my book.

anyway...

how can you NOT wanna catch a movie after seeing this poster?!
i simply can't resist this kinda temptation.

my gosh...
i HAVE to catch this movie this weekend!

it's gonna be my goal of the week...

so... prepare my horse!
i have to get to the nearest freaking cinema!
SPARTANS!!!

just so uber cool.
any free souls wanna come watch it with me this saturday?

2007-03-15T01:57:00.000-07:00

wonderful...

a day to relax... a day to rest tired bodies... to sooth bad burns... to heal...
to rejunvenate...
to revive...
to relieve...

awww... (i love days like this)

i certainly hope everyone's enjoying their day...
i know life's stressful for everyone...
but hey...
that's why it's called LIFE.

1 life. live it. =)
time for my facial. woo.

2007-03-14T00:52:00.000-07:00

haha...

it's funny how i always love to start things with a "haha".

i must be so weird. or maybe it's because i try to keep a positive outlook on whatever happens and so the easiest way to lighten a sober mood would be the magic of laughter. i dunno about you, but i find laughter... true blue laugh-your-heart-out laughter... fake laughs not included... to truly be the most mystical of all experiences in life.

i mean... you could be in a deep shit situation... but for some reason or another, you spot something funny - and you laugh. incredibly, the feeling of being in deep shit disappears. i know i've experienced this plenty of times during the course of the year.

it's like a tension breaker....

a jaw-muscle trainer...

a mood-enhancer...

ALL tossed into ONE.

amazing. i should watch more comedies.

anyway... i was flipping through some stuff during my free time and i spotted this really weird-ass cat picture...

apparently... this weird creature... is ----- a TOY-GER!
how's that for a name? haha.

so the deal with this things is that it is a cross breeding of cute felines... to produce... oops, wrong terminology... to BREED cats that have the distinct tiger-like strips on their bodies.

OMG! it's like some freaky science experiment go awry.

luckily... they still remain largely different from the beasts they were suppose to imitate.

behold... a real tiger. see subtle differences? haha.

pity... how cute little kittens...

turn into such weird-ass cats. freaky.

amazing how man can simply change the things around him to suit his desires and fancies. even the smallest creatures have never escaped this vice that man-kind has indefinitely imposed upon our world.

alas... the saddest thing is... no matter how hard we try to shape and define our enviroment... with one flood/earthquake/tsunami/meteor shower/volcanic eruption/bird-flu/mad cow disease/AIDs outbreak... nature will always regain control.

why fight what you cannot change?

a struggle for survival... is a fight for purpose. =) haha.

2007-03-11T00:29:00.000-08:00

what's up everybody?

haha... there... another perfectly good weekend down the drain.

hope everyone had a more productive week than i did.

things are getting so messy down in the office... got to fend off the many arrows from the bosses and supervisors... got to touch up and do my reports on my training progress for my TRG I/C... i just being a civil servant is just like that... only mine is the down-right disgustingly unadmitted end of the spectrum. (think Just Follow Law)

anyway, i was watching some tv yesterday when i came across the advertisement for the new Channel 5 drama "After Hours"... it's the follow-up drama to the show "Chase".

so i was watching some of the behind the scene takes and such... and i must admit i am showing an incredible amount of interest in that show.

here's the Mediacock website if you too find yourself unable to pull your eyes away from this sexy new drama.

http://ch5.mediacorptv.com/shows/drama/view/1433/1/.html

the show stars... the admirably beautiful Linda Liao...

which, i must admit... caught my attention to begin with...

haha... dun worry ladies... there's MTV's Utt and some other hunk there to spice up the show for you too.

as for me...
i'm pretty much contented with just watching her. woo. hot.

P.S dunno how many of you caught the advertisement with her, utt and joanne peh? well... it goes something like this.
Utt: well there's two reasons for you to catch the show...
Joanne: cos it's booty-licious... (move her hips to "try and show" a "sexy butt" pose)
Linda: and it's sexy! (uses both hands to "enhance" her bosom, before giving a sultry pout)
Utt: (simply smiles and points to both ladies)
COOL. lucky bastard.

2007-03-07T20:45:00.000-08:00

woo... what a day...
or rather... what a way to begin a new day.

it's only 1247H and i just finished watching the LAST EPISODE OF HANA KIMI!

i can't believe it... it was completely NOT what i had expected for an ending.
OMG... i almost cried... no no... not because the ending was sad... but rather because there was not much of an ending!

how i wished the series could have lasted longer...

oh well... today's not really a day for wishful thinking.

but the show was really sweet... so good to see that their secret love for each other worked out alright in the end. it's so magical (okie okie... i know it's just a show) how they feel the same way for each other, yet they choose to not reveal their feelings even until the end... so they could live the way that they already were.

haha... enough of the romantics... heroes don't need to talk too much of that stuff. LoL.

i was wondering, after someone sms-ed me about the tremours...
Singaporeans really are super KIASI...
it's SO TRUE.

take for instance this stupid earthquake, mind you it took place like 430 KM from our tiny little island, we just feel a some tremours and suddenly everybody is in a state of panic?
aren't you people over-reacting a bit?
it's not like it never happened before...
do you really need to vacant your homes?
do you think you should declare a half-day off and close your stores?
does Singapore really come to a stand-still... all because of some tiny mumur in the ground?

if that truly is the case... then i feel sad for our society... we try so hard to prepare ourselves for emergencies... for war... for freaking terrorists. we bolted metal covers on MRT trash bins for goodness sake!
but when the shit really hits the fan? we all just panic.

panic...
call newspapers...

haha... how i love you my dear Singapore. you will never change.

2007-03-06T04:00:00.000-08:00

that's funny...

now that i think about it...

i think i'm actually starting to enjoy life.

weird. feels so strange. especially after all the shit that happens in my life. wonder if i'll die from over-excitement after i leave the force. haha.

changing perspectives. they should use that as the new tagline for armed forces recruitment. haha... maybe i should suggest it to them. maybe i'll get some funny award. LoL

anyway... i just finished watching the Hana Kimi episode of Channel U.

another funny thing... it's probably the 3rd time i've watched it already... but i just don't get bored of it. haha... i must be getting old and boring.

to think i'm resorting to watch re-runs of taiwanese dramas...

what have i become?

Ooo... i found out something while watching... is it true that the show seems shorter than on DVD? 'cause some episodes on tv seems as if they were combining 2 episodes from the DVD... weird or true?

boring...

i'm soooooo bored...

someone please think of something for me to do...

something productive...

something special...

something interesting...

no ideas? predictable.

found it on the net... so true ain't it?

2007-03-05T21:44:00.000-08:00

aiyo...

i'm blogging at 1345H! on a work day!

why?

it's 'cause i'm.... on MC!

haha... guess it really pays to be a little sick now and then.

felt sightly feverish and vomitted in the morning. (and no i do NOT have morning sickness. freaks.) so i went to camp... like every hero should... keeping the pain to myself... praying that it would simply go away. but i couldn't... guess i just wasn't strong enough. so the hero me decided to go report sick instead. so i WALKED... yes, i WALKED in the bloody hot sun for about 2.5km to the Medical Centre.

upon arrival... i nearly fainted... no, not because of the weather (i'm a hero remember, heroes can take more shit than that) but because of the freaking loooooooong queue.

all those stupid botak headed privates wearing their PT kit... cluthing their water bottles... so freaking many... around 20! that's like almost half a platoon! so i watched (in pain) as these idiots, served by the other idiots at the MC talk cock with each other... laughing and giggling... they were suppose to be SICK. super duper "keng-sters"...

so the deal was this... i waited for 2 hours... saw the MO and got my stuff within 5 minutes.

efficient eh?

time for what all heroes need most... rest.

mummy... the really hero in my life. =)

2007-03-05T00:48:00.000-08:00

i was just looking over my blog...

enjoying my new song...

did you notice? it's been changed...

quick quick...

take a quick peep at your window's top left hand corner...

it says in green... xia xue.

haha! still don't get it yet? maybe going here... will create more awareness...
www.xiaxue.blogspot.com

haha... it's funny right? or do i just have a weird sense of humor...

oh well.

2007-03-04T21:05:00.000-08:00

Heroes...

everyone's looking for one...
individuals with the power to change the world they live in...

longing for one? doesn't really work that way...
entertaining the thought? fat chance...

heroes can't be found... heroes are born... heroes are made...

tried by the flame of life...

sharpened by the trials of temptation...

and most importantly...

"Heroes never run."

wondering about the weird talk? haha... just finished a super 20 hour marathorn session of watching the hit tv series Heroes. i think my eyes are probably asleep in their sockets. haha... maybe i'm typing on instinct. haha.

i wanna be a hero [hiro]...

"save the cheerleader... save the world..."

2007-02-28T19:59:00.000-08:00

looks like everything is sort of on the way back to normal.

thank goodness.

F for Friends forever..

i actually learnt something through all of this. a some sort of social equation if you will. ever marvel at how the actions of one affect the actions of many? and that the subsequent actions themselves affect the actions of the first? and how through the web called friendship, the line of affliction crisses and crosses into the lives of everyone else?

life is complicated.

oh well... but that's life!

i do hope we can put all this misunderstandings and weird-unspeakable-feelings behind us. i realise that this in reality will need some time... but i hope the bond between all of us is stronger than something so trivial as this would break.

hmm... i have been so pre-occupied with this for the past few days that i totally forgot to do an introduction for my new blogskin. you all DID NOTICE my NEW blogskin right? *winks.

anyway... it's got a flower theme to it... as per my previous blogskin... but the only difference now is... it's not just a flower theme... it's a winter-flower theme!

i dunno if you all know the flower that is in the picture...

so for your general benefit...

i shall educate you...

presenting...

the winter-flower... Ume うめ. it's basically an asian plum.
but she's a really beauty isn't she?
notice how incredibly white the petals are?
wonderful how the delicate white is carefully laced with just enough red and yellow to make it so amazing to look at.

but that's not the most amazing thing about this-my-new-favourite plant...
the most astounding thing about her is this...
her blossoms are so beloved, because they bloom most vibrantly amidst the winter snow while all other flowers have long since succumbed to the cold and died.

i hope we can all be exactly like her...

we can be as understanding as her...

we can be an example of resilience and perseverance in the face of adversity...

we can bloom in the most difficult and challenging of conditions...

to become a beauty unmatched by any.

岁寒三友... are we?

2007-02-27T05:22:00.000-08:00

this situation is about to go to the point where i should just surrender completely.

i wish i could just hide under my pillow and hope all this turbulence will just blow itself away.

maybe this ostrich-mentality is something that i would have tried...

but i can't.

i can't because if i do... i might lose something incredible precious to me. your friendship.

now i'm confused...

2007-02-26T18:07:00.000-08:00

okie... so i thought this was gonna be just another day...

i just finished my shift cycle...

all war-torn and weary...

so i get my lazy ass back home...

plonk myself down at my computer terminal...

open a window to look at everyone's "new" blogs...

and as my eyes scan through each entry...

only one thought comes to mind...

"Oh great... what the @#$% have I done now?!"

okie... so now as i type this out... i feel like a dick. i probably am one if i could have done something so blatantly insensitive and ended up hurting your feelings or giving you a wrong impression and idea of what i truly desired to portray.

i'm sorry..

请原谅我..

私を許しなさい...

나를 용서하십시요... you are one friend i never want to lose. if it takes me a thousand sorries...

2007-02-25T04:43:00.000-08:00

sitting here all alone at night...
here by myself, watching "My Boyfriend is Type B" on the telly...
everything seems so peaceful, the world is at rest.
'somethings amiss, the dark clouds have gathered... the calm before the storm?

already i think i need some fresh air...
lately most of the papers have been speaking of war and WMDs...
long time ago, when we were all living the simple life... this would never have happened.

you can only wonder why the world needs more trouble than this...
overly cautious or kiasu-ly prepared?
uniformed men filling up the streets in thailand...
rest assured, this land will never fall to the enemy.
simply because... true loves knows no bounds.

sometimes... life can be so much easier when you know where your priorities lie.

needless conflicts abased with nothing more than a understanding smile.

so smile, my friend...

and i will definitely smile with you.

P.S caught the photo off the web... haha... probably some practical joke. =)

2007-02-24T22:15:00.000-08:00

oh dear... there goes another weekend.
nuts... means only 1 thing... it's back to work.

oh well, at least i got to enjoy a movie this week. haha.

so bored... maybe i should change my blogskin.

but i'm so fantastically lazy.

that's all folks. peace.

说一千遍我爱你也都还不够,
就这样不贪心我慢慢的走...
只要有你陪着我,
再苦我能承受.
有一天我总会看见幸福的彩虹...

2007-02-19T04:39:00.000-08:00

woo... so FULL...
had a nice hot-plate dinner, it's been awhile since i had one. loads of trans-fats. grease like nobody's business. and worst of all... that brownish caramelised butter that fills the bottom of the pan after cooking for awhile. ewww... but yummy.

now i smell like butter...

去某个幸福快乐的星球..
不确定我的笑容..
还能够撑多久..

i feel happiness slipping away... why?

2007-02-18T23:12:00.000-08:00

it's the 2 day of the Lunar New Year!
i'm feeling slightly more festive than before...
but it's still missing that certain something...

oh well...
i can't complain...
i had a great night... great mahjong... great early morning Mac Breakfast...

so many memories running through my mind...
i think blogging is actually a wonderful brain exercise...
everytime i wanna blog something, i'll try to remember the whole time... the whole day... all the emotions... all the thoughts and feelings...
and by the time i gather and re-live them again in my mind...
i become too tired and lazy to type it out.

much like now.
"how you doin'?"

2007-02-17T06:50:00.000-08:00

it's the eve of chinese new year...

everywhere i turn i see people celebrating... i see them happy... i see the joy streaming across the faces of children with their families and relatives... i see teens running in the streets with their friends laughing and making merry. i see couples at the park enjoying a peacefully moment with one another... lost in a world of their own.

i see myself... so unfestive indeed. a picture of gloomy-ness despite the crowded-ness.
someone asked... have you ever felt alone in a crowded room?
i have now.

i wonder why?
why am i feeling so negated and down?
i should be happy... it's a holiday...
why am i feeling so alone?

it's so different from last year's CNY.
last year's CNY was my saviour... because of it i enjoyed a super long break and didn't have to go through the full 2-weeks of BMT confinement at Tekong. i came home bald... but at least... i came home happy. is it cause i have nothing more to gain that i feel that sense of loss?
is it the grief of being moderately satisifed that i feel this sense of apathy?

anyway... i'll go to sleep tonight...
wishing for a better tomorrow...

oh yeah... today was my mummy's birthday too. =)

2007-02-15T04:12:00.000-08:00

well... Valentine's Day has once again come and gone...
quick how time flies when you're single. haha... kidding... just kidding.

anyway, seeing as how everyone's been blogging about how they spent their V'day (with or without the Special Someone), a thought suddenly popped into my mind... i should tell you how wonderful... or wonderfully dreadful... my V'day was.

as you might or might not know... alas, poor me was working the night shift. so, i never even got the chance to leave my post and go have some fun. that's the sad part. the good part? i was back on shift duties with my all time favourite shift team. it really melted my heart to think how, at least God gave me something good to remember for V'day. i just love working with this shift team... great bunch of guys... great food... great all-round fun. i remember coming out to collect the dinner rations (which were then promptly discarded due to the grosteque nature of its contents) when i saw this sms "hope you spend your day with the people you love"... i know i might have remembered it wrongly (but that's the main point anyway)... but what i do rememeber is saying a silent prayer and thanking God for this great shift combo. =) yay!

i was previously forced to work with another shift team because of some manpower issues. a bitch to work with. =( crapps to you.

oh oh oh... i was watching MTV the night before V'day and they were showing this new show...
Why Can't I Be You?
have you guys heard about it? it's a show where there are basically 2 people. 1 is the loser who wishes he could be like the other guy. 1 is the other guy, who is normally better looking, rich, successful etc.
so the deal with the show is... you (the loser) have to (with the help of the host) ask the other guy to let you in on his life (for 48 hrs) to see how he is what he is. the catch? MTV will pay the other guy.... $1000! cool huh?

it got me thinking... especially being a V'day eve and all... would i rather be someone else?
would i rather live the life of someone else?
my answer: hell yeah!
my life sucks... crap job... little free time... no girlfriend (V'day eve... so this was rather significant).

ahh... i was comtemplating trying to be someone else... or at least find someone who i would like to imagine myself becoming in the near future. no no... not some freaking celebrity or profusely rich old tycoon... a normal person... an everyday man. but to my disappointment. my lazy mind failed me. oh well.

so i had to find other things to do to keep my lazy mind active... or rather at least until it was bed-time (no good to rot your brain for an evening). so i crafted that V'day video for all you wonderful angels in my life. okok... so the video doesn't include ALL the angels in my life. ah... you get the point right? anyway... after doing that... with some frustration because the Movie Maker kept hanging on me (and i forgot to SAVE!)... i finally finished it and posted it for all your viewing pleasure.

when i came back from work this morning (after a really shiok night shift)... i saw all your sms-es and tags and youtube comments... and i must admit... it makes me happy to know you guys liked the video. a really heart-warming thought indeed. then something hit me... no really... i got hit by one of those ball-shaped pong pong tree balls... on the head. pain.

nah... besides that... i also came to realise... i rather not be someone else. i like my life just the way it is... because somewhere in this pool of chaos... i met you people... and i wouldn't trade that feeling for the world.

P.S crap... gonna have to miss the "reunion-dinner" you guys were planning. seems like i miss every new year (both roman and lunar) celebrations (for this and last year) with ya all. nuts. gotta try harder next year...

2007-02-13T05:08:00.000-08:00

Oh crappers.

i just realized that my blogskin is TINY.

which means you can only see HALF (or less) of the video screen.

nuts.

so anyway... here's the website for easier watching...
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lR5kiu_087g

2007-02-13T04:44:00.000-08:00

Happy Valentine's Day Everybody!

As a present to all you beloved peeps... i have created a video just for you guys and gals.
c'mon... you know who you are...

i spent a good 1 hour doing it...

probably not as good as compared if funny did it...

but it's got some sentimental value...

so you better appreciate it.

cool... enjoy.

hope you guys and gals have a great Valentine's Day.
spending time with loved ones is a wonderful feeling.
so remember to cherish the ones that love you... you never know when you might never get that chance again.

P.S yeah yeah... i know my video-making needs a bit of work. but what else can you do when you got NO VIDEOS to work with and only a CRAPPY WINDOWS MOVIE-MAKER? haha. next time... i'll do a better one next year. =)

2007-02-12T02:58:00.000-08:00

you just gotta check this out. it's like so damn cute. haha... just makes me wanna smile again.

something else that makes me wanna SMILE... Chinese New Year! it's finally coming... holidays... ang baos... food, glorious food... what more can you ask for?

Valentine's Day's just around the corner too. have you thought about what to do with your loved one? buying presents... having romantic candlelight dinners... taking photos by the coast, your faces illuminated by moonlight... lying in the arms of the one you love, watching as the world passes you by... whispering sweet nothings for the entire evening...
awww....

if i should be so lucky.

2007-02-09T06:36:00.000-08:00

it's amazing...
i'm actually blogging something.

i think it's gonna be at least 3 weeks since i last blogged. goodness, it feels like forever. haha... just goes to show how incredible lazy people can get. once the passion for something is lost, to rekindle the flame is rather tedious and creates a daunting task that we would prefer not to fulfill.

i think i am one of those people who suffer from "short-term obsession". the kind which gets easily excited over something, that they fall completely and utterly for that particular thing for that period of time. until one day, they simply lose interest... and that object of desire becomes nothing more than a white elephant or a hinderance.

it's weird how this kind of condition affects the state of mind of that person, for the time he is afflicted with this ailment, and how powerless he becomes to resist that desire. i dunno how to properly explain such a phenomenon... perhaps this is one of those things which (much like love) can only be fully understood when one has first hand experience it for themselves.

it's so funny when i think about all the weird and wonderfully stuff i've done because of this. all because i failed to keep myself in check and give in so easily to this kind of pursuits. well... i'm not one to wash my dirty laundry in public, but i think it's good to always reflect on your behaviour once in a while to get to understand yourself and who you really are.

who am i?
the question everyone thinks they know...

2007-01-25T05:02:00.000-08:00

i'm in over my head.

its almost the end of the 1st month of the year.
i have to admit that i'm feeling a wee bit useless now. perhaps even helpless to a certain degree. everything that i planned to do from the start of the year... the passion has been fading... and i come to the realization that somethings just cannot be done.
i'm losing you and it's so effortless...
i hate it when reality spoils my plans. it's my life, so why can't i live it the way i desire to?
I wish you were a stranger I could disengage...
i think perhaps i should start rethinking my new year's resolutions before the month ends. the give myself some sort of direction to work towards for the rest of the year.

a review of my thoughts (things will get messy)...

1. learn to drive - damn man... i get so many people bugging me to start learning. "learn while you're still serving and it will be faster" "go find a private instructor la.. it's cheaper" "aiyo.. why you wanna wait?" hmm... the is a problem (especially for a person doing shift work in a 24/7 enviroment... interestingly enough... most of the comments come from co-workers... so i have come to the conclusion that they are either mad or sleeping on the job). anyway.. i think i'll stick with BBDC (thanks). but what i AM comtemplating is this - doing a 3A instead of a 3C. i remember speaking to a friend about this... she claims that she "doesn't wanna fail on her first try" and so has opted for the auto course. i think she has a point. but then again.. i'll be wasting all the valuable experience from having your car die on you and other bugs that newbie manual drivers encounter.

2. learn japanese - this one. is very interesting. because the interest level here is extremely high. i been looking through many language centres for their courses and have found an incredible amount of great places to go to (at reasonable prices). the only setback... the time factor. damn... i really hate shift work. most courses offered are class-based and so fixed timings for classes are the preferred choice of operations for the centres. alas... poor me now has only 2 options. having a centre that can provide me with a flexible schedule (not likely... but even if they do... it's not very good for me either... cause the teacher might be different every lesson... and other problems) or finding a 1 to 1 tutor that can come upon request (problem here... FINDING one... and the price).

haha... i'm going to stop here. if i carry this on... i think i'll be typing the whole night long.

oh oh oh... but what i do wanna add into my resolution is this...
11. going overseas with friends (haha... see... F for friend k?)
she's on your mind.

2007-01-23T06:50:00.000-08:00

haha... i know i know...
this entry is gonna be pretty dumb.

okie... so today i was checking my email when lo and behold...
(funny, dun kill me... i honestly forgot all about it) i found this email about
YOURSELF as a CARTOON CHARACTER. haha... weird huh?

anyway... remembering that i needed to take the test... i went right on ahead.
it's just those kinda normal chain mail kinda thing where you answer stupid questions and by some higher-divine-power you get the answer to your personality. dumb.

haha... taking the test... i feel dumber already...
i am an ARNOLD. (score 27). crapps.
of all the freaking gay cartoon characters that they had (Spongebob, Charlie Brown, Dexter... etc.) i had to be a football-shaped-head freak. thanks nick-toons.

hmm... on other notes... i'm working on saturday. double crapps.
van. lend me borat! i dying to watch it.
limme know when i can get it from ya.

2007-01-22T04:24:00.000-08:00

it's time...
once again...
for me...
to post a video! woo!

this time... it's Ayaka's I Believe.
was flipping through a mag my sister passed to me and i just happened to see her cd in one of the columns. so, being the excessively curious mouse... i went (like any other average person would) to youtube.com to check it out. turns out... that malaysian project superstar sin huey (or something like that) did a cover of this song too. haha... but well... i like originals.

so here it is...
dozo.

hmmm... i wonder if it can fit into my new, super tight blogskin. oh well.

2007-01-20T07:58:00.000-08:00

this is not a new post.

this is me in a hurried-rush-to-sleep-entry.

this will be edited when i get home again.

2 guys + 1 girl down. minus 1 guy later.

3 girls + 1 guy up. plus 1 guy later.

superdogs! hotdogs with a bang for your buck @ vivocity basement level.
never order an ordinary dog. no bang at all. might as well bang your head against the wall. note to self: order a chilli-dog next time. nice fries though. chunky. yum yum.

found seats because guy + girlfriend with same red crumpler (as yours truly), gave them up.
miracles do happen when you have a "crumpler-connection".

saw another butch carrying one (red crumpler) @ topshop... not cool. on the plus side - butch had super-hot lesbian girlfriend. "crumpler-connection"... approx 75%. when butch wasn't looking and the 3 girls were busy trying out their clothes. mirrors are such wonderful things.

no movie. was suppose to catch mel gibson's apocolyto? (remember to spell-check)
got there late. only 1 showtime. red - selling fast. no go. Gold-class? you must be mad.

everyone bought something... except for me. left with a broken heart and empty hands. need to do some serious retail therapy. CNY's coming. need new threads. need new shoes. need new brain. (maybe not)

oh right... i got victimised by the 3 girls. keep getting punched by 1 and slapped by the other. luckily there was at least 1 sane one around. not much protection though. hint hint*

but the highlight of the evening had to be the TIMELINE. ever wondered how you'd be like in 15 years or 55 years time?
it's scary... like peeping into the future. for 1 lucky lady... her future was unveiled before her very eyes. like heaven opening a door into your soul. does she like what she sees?
only she knows.
*anyway.. who wants to be a fat, thinning white haired smoker who needs to stand by the dustbin cum ash-tray with a walking stick to light a ciggie?.... when she's 65 years old?!

not me. i doubt i'd be bald by then either. comb-over maybe?

tagline for the night
"eh... #### in 15 years time...*points*"

2007-01-19T08:23:00.000-08:00

i am so HAPPY! i'm elated. i'm everything that is good and pleasant in the world today.

why?

'cause it arrived... it finally arrived.

my ebay purchased dvd has come to me at long last.
(in case you forgot, it's that J-drama Nobuta Wo Produce)

anyway... i found it on my bed this morning when i got home from work. it was just lying there. in its neatly wrapped brown packaging. ATT: Mr Samuel, it said on the cover. carefully unwrapping the tightly scotch-taped thing became a really hassle and so i just tore through the entire thing... revealing... bubble-wrap!
i miss playing with bubble-wrap... its like so much fun can? i imagine myself just sitting there rocking myself with my bubble-wrap in my arms popping away... such bliss.
anyway... removing all the unnecessary distractions... there it was... my dvd.

started watching it already... not many episodes in the series... but i'm cool with it. haha... funny stuff there. plus... erika toda... drools.

ooo... on another note... went out for dinner at lot 1. haha... from noodles... to rice... to pandan chicken... to venison... to thai prawn cakes... yummy.

haha... and not forgetting... the McFlurry. haha... the tagline for the evening...
"I can eat McFlurries because I am slim."

truer words were never spoken. lol. kidding. funny must be fuming.